It's pretty sad really. I work a physical job and I've been working on my car. Did any of that break my back? No. What broke my bad was laying on a pillow weird. It's like properly fucked up. I did fine at work yesterday. The real issue is sleeping. Every position feels like I'm properly fucking it up further. I know the spine is no joke. Once I get into a position that is semi comfortable it's impossible to get out of without it feeling like I'm ripping my spine in two which means once I'm in bed I'm basically stuck and have to make multiple attempts trying to figure out how to transition out. If this persists one of these days I'm just going to ignore the pain, which I could do, and end up paralyzing myself. My assumption is things hurt for a reason, so I'm kind of letting the pain win hoping it gets better. But if I get sick of this shit I'm going to stop doing that.
I am lucky reaching this age. As someone who lost their husband at a relatively young age once said to me: "It's sad when old people die but sadder when young people do".
The only bugbear to getting old imo (apart from the creakiness (or is that creepiness in my case)) is that the dominant thought always in your mind is ...death!
My father is dying here in Century Care in Century Florida. He looks bored af... He likes Germanamericanradio.com. He is very Christian and I sit and read him his favorite verses, but I feel he's tiring of those things.
I'm looking any suggestions of nice, upbeat kinda of things that I can relax him with.
