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Don't get attached to people.

Used to have a bunch of friends in high school, they all started doing degenerate shit. Cut them off.

Got to college, ended up being friends with a whole damn hall in the dorms. Most ended up doing degenerate shit, cut them off.

HS trying for a girlfriend, trying to find anyone decent was hard enough, got turned down every time anyway.

College, didn't even try. Sluts, narcissists, all of that everywhere. Just quit trying at that point.

Graduated and started subbing, there's a small handful of good kids I've become something like an older brother to. Try to do what I can to steer them straight, and one by one they keep fucking up. Not even adults yet and they're already lost. Casualties.

Yesterday I bump into one girl, one of the first who adopted me as an "older brother" I guess. In the morning I'm walking in and she runs up all giddy and everything borderline yelling "I have a boyfriend!". Made me feel fucking old but I was really happy for the kid. She doesn't have a lot of friends because they do stupid shit and she doesn't want to be part of all that, hyper as Hell, just a good kid. So I was happy for her.

Was.

I was in town basically babysitting last night at an event, kid finds me there and starts talking to me for a solid hour, as she does. Starts showing me her boyfriend and man my stomach just fucking sank. She's with a fucking mutt. A motherfucking nigger-White mutt. Looks like a discount Mexican with fucking broccoli growing on its head. There was a pic of them together and it was just repulsive. You got that fucking *thing* there looking half retarded and then a blonde and blue girl who I've unfortunately become somewhat attached to. Something between a favorite student and little sister.

Then she's showing me texts she gets from this dude and he's a total fucking prick.

Summarizing here, I told her what I think and highly recommended she get the fuck away from that thing. I'm not her parents, not her blood, no real authority, but I have seen a thing or two and good God I hope she takes my advice and bails.

But then I get up this morning and it just hits me... The damage is already done. That kid genuinely doesn't see anything wrong with what she's doing, and even likes the thing. Sad thing is, odds are she'll be in HS or college and end up as just another degenerate. Drugs, slutting around, whatever, despite being averse to drinking and other stuff like that right now. I've seen it happen a thousand times and it'll happen many more.

Just another casualty. But that's war, right?

Seems it's best just to stay detached and see people as means to an end if anything at all. Even the kids are fucked up now, and they're tomorrow's hostiles.

Yes, this shit is bugging me. It's one situation that exemplifies a lot that is wrong with this world God appears to have turned his back on, and I can't blame him.

I can't even kill myself because of that God.