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"Dry Drunk" (resentment)

submitted by Smedleys_Butler to SmedleysPorch 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 14:04:23 ago (+11/-0)     (SmedleysPorch)

I resent my overstaying
I resent where I must go
The cryptic advice in passing
But it beats not having a home

I resent this jawn ain't the museum
You're allowed to touch and feel
I resent our embalmed sense of time
Are we mannequins or real

I resent how the speaker gets pussy
Once was simple made complex
I resent crimes he's acquitted
Still he's lucky, but I'm blessed

I resent protected classes
Playing victim while all kneel
I resent those once admired
Till true colors they reveal

I resent the slander of the dead
I resent the facts I must correct
Maybe that's my same destiny
Just hope someone will defend

I resent the string of circumstance
That led to the bottom of this rock
I resent this path if it's predestined
But thank God the detours soft

I resent those well intentions
To control and whip me into shape
I resent addiction to defiance
While I surrender my fate

I resent the double standards
Color guards of behavior
I resent weight and face changing
Yet other judgements prove my worth

I resent my isolation
I resent i cannot be alone
Like when I'm the life of the party
Hate it's over they went home


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Trope 1 points 4 months ago

Find the things in life that hit as hard as the drugs.

Recovered drunks and drug addicts are an intolerable bunch. Whelp, without the drugs, life is over. We are victims of an incurable disease.

Fuck that, now is your chance to take full accountability and own everything that has happened to you up until today. Now take the creative energy, passion, and drive you put into getting your fix and use it to build an amazing life for yourself. Because if the blame falls on abusive parents, an ex-wife, or the universe, well that sucks because you can’t control it then. But if you are in control of things, then that’s great news because it means you can fix it!

Any time I ever went all in on something, I got ahead. Use that addictive ability to focus and obsess and do something great with it.