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"Dry Drunk" (resentment)

submitted by Smedleys_Butler to SmedleysPorch 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 14:04:23 ago (+11/-0)     (SmedleysPorch)

I resent my overstaying
I resent where I must go
The cryptic advice in passing
But it beats not having a home

I resent this jawn ain't the museum
You're allowed to touch and feel
I resent our embalmed sense of time
Are we mannequins or real

I resent how the speaker gets pussy
Once was simple made complex
I resent crimes he's acquitted
Still he's lucky, but I'm blessed

I resent protected classes
Playing victim while all kneel
I resent those once admired
Till true colors they reveal

I resent the slander of the dead
I resent the facts I must correct
Maybe that's my same destiny
Just hope someone will defend

I resent the string of circumstance
That led to the bottom of this rock
I resent this path if it's predestined
But thank God the detours soft

I resent those well intentions
To control and whip me into shape
I resent addiction to defiance
While I surrender my fate

I resent the double standards
Color guards of behavior
I resent weight and face changing
Yet other judgements prove my worth

I resent my isolation
I resent i cannot be alone
Like when I'm the life of the party
Hate it's over they went home


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[ - ] Trope 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 23:55:29 ago (+1/-0)

Find the things in life that hit as hard as the drugs.

Recovered drunks and drug addicts are an intolerable bunch. Whelp, without the drugs, life is over. We are victims of an incurable disease.

Fuck that, now is your chance to take full accountability and own everything that has happened to you up until today. Now take the creative energy, passion, and drive you put into getting your fix and use it to build an amazing life for yourself. Because if the blame falls on abusive parents, an ex-wife, or the universe, well that sucks because you can’t control it then. But if you are in control of things, then that’s great news because it means you can fix it!

Any time I ever went all in on something, I got ahead. Use that addictive ability to focus and obsess and do something great with it.

[ - ] The_Reunto 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 17:41:58 ago (+1/-0)

Sober from the substance but not sober from the feelings. Racing back to you like being waterboarded. Gasping to breathe. You're still drowning in the bottle of your mind. Submitting to it to numb the pain. Ruminations. You're drunk again, just in a different way.

"Be sober, be vigilant; because your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:" - 1 Peter 5:8

[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 18:39:51 ago (+0/-0)

It's a release piece a few weeks old now.

[ - ] deleted 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 16:40:21 ago (+1/-0)

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[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 16:52:22 ago (+1/-0)

There's a positive sequel

[ - ] Sector2 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 16:16:07 ago (+1/-0)

Dry drunk syndrome is a term that AA developed. They used the term to refer to people who no longer drink alcohol but experience the same issues or behaviors as when they did. Many now consider dry drunk syndrome to be a stigmatizing term, as it can imply that a person is not putting in the effort necessary to recover.

Eh? Saying they can now be drunk without having to purchase and consume alcohol?

I know there's a "dry drowning", but "dry drunk" sounds sketchy and like a misleading name for something else.

[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 16:53:46 ago (+1/-0)

Yeah, term confused me too.

[ - ] RMGoetbbels 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 17:30:17 ago (+1/-0)

people who no longer drink alcohol but experience the same issues or behaviors as when they did.

I would guess bad decisions, lack of inhibition and emotional highs and lows.

True alcoholics will always be alcoholics. I think there are people out there, for a few reasons, that believe they are alcoholics but are just dumbasses that blame alcohol. An alcoholic has a mental and physical need that I'm told never goes away, they learn to manage it though. This I've seen first hand over a period of years(long boring story).

A "dry drunk" may remember that he can do a back flip off the back of the tailgate and may want to do it again because last time he didn't get hurt. He may also get into a fight remembering that the hits aren't so hard to take because they weren't last time. He may also believe that women are willing to talk to him when he doesn't buy them drinks or is part of that crowd.

Idk, just my two cents.

[ - ] NamelessOne 0 points 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 15:11:26 ago (+0/-0)

I did step 10 daily for two years, looking back on that cringe shit really made me realize how crazy early sobriety is.

I hope someone's telling you that the racing thoughts and manic instability will even out as you stay sober.

[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 15:17:55 ago (+1/-0)

This is about two weeks old. Write it out. Feel better. Positive sequel

[ - ] Jews4atSYSTEM 0 points 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 14:13:37 ago (+0/-0)

I would have also accepted "A divorced man be like..."

[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 14:34:12 ago (+0/-0)

I've never been married. Stay tuned for the flip side

[ - ] Jews4atSYSTEM 0 points 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 14:51:56 ago (+0/-0)

My comment wasn't directed at you specifically. It was more about the torment that divorced men go through...

[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 4 monthsDec 22, 2023 15:19:44 ago (+0/-0)

Guess I'm grateful for that then...