I worked so hard... Fucking 12-18 hour days at jobs for years to make a better life for myself and STILL after all that's it's not looking good as far as quality women out there (yeah yeah, if you're a quality woman you know who you are). I'm just going to have to bite the bullet and pray. No marriage though because that's full blown retarded. But it looks like I may have to have kids with some slut/prostitute-in-denial just to get it done, and statistically lose a large portion of my income or assets and go through hell in court....
Wish me luck because I don't think I'll be able to emotionally or mentally handle this. I went through a deep depression for years about 10 years ago and even though I'm over it now (yes, I beat depression - please don't pity me or give sympathy, I'm just telling the story), I have always caught a glimpse in my mental periphery of that dark memory lurking in the past and wondered if it could ever return. I won't be able to do that again, but I think I have a better outlook on life and am already preparing for old age, so that will be a comforting thought to stave away the problem I think.
Anyway, thought I would share and see what people think. Wish me luck because I will need it.
