In this dream I was talking to a woman. And she was acting negatively because of my phone. Because it is not a new phone. And it is an Android phone. And I was trying to explain to her that I have a new phone sitting in a drawer that Google had sent to me under NDA (this is true) but that this phone is better because it has GrapheneOS.
I was trying to show various features, use logical positions, philosophical ideals about privacy and security, my 3 day battery life, how the new phone had almost 2x apps in similar config and how all those apps were spying, the works... and being met with only a fluoride stare, illogical combative statements, and an inability to comprehend.
It was daunting and boring. I hope I never have such dreams again. This was caused by reading /g on my phone before nodding off and installing a GrapheneOS update overnight. What a shit waste of dreaming. I am thankful for the client that had called to wake me up and rescue me from that tedium.
Seems like the phone might symbolize you. You are trying to sell your many fine “features” to a hypothetical woman as superior to “more popular models” but you are afraid that women won’t see your finer points.
I think there is a niche market for guys with good “battery life” but you have to really put yourself out there and meet a lot of people.
It has something to do with that I was in a grocery store to pick up some chicken drumsticks after working out at gymnasium. And I was looking at the ground beef thinking about how I have ground beef at home but have to defrost it, and I took a big sigh, and when I exhaled my eyes met the eyes of an attractive Russian woman who was observing me as she passed. And that our eyes stayed locked until we were behind each other. And I was disappointed that I did not say anything to her. The dream was clearly caused by this interaction, the reading of technology forum, and the installation of a GrapheneOS update plus hardening of phone firewall rules immediately before sleep. As such, I must deny your interpretation, as the sale had been made but no transaction was recorded. More than likely my mind was looking for justification to offset the regret.
Come to think of it, I should make a habit of going to this grocery store after the gym. For a few days prior, I was buying some vegetables there and another Russian woman almost broke her neck. And my stupid ass just nodded at her.
[ - ] Kozel [op] 1 point 4 daysMay 30, 2025 18:08:03 ago (+1/-0)
I had the confidence to hold the woman's gaze. But I didn't have the impulse to act upon it. I must work on being impulsive, I guess. Last time I asked a woman out, it was at a work, I told her I needed to speak with her and to meet me in an office. When she walked in, I turned 180 in a reclining chair the way bond villains do and propositioned her, and she blushed and smiled and put a paper over her face. But at work I had time to observe, make strategic determinations, conduct tactical analysis, and execute a planned maneuver. But to fit all of this into two seconds. And to find the words. Quite a challenge for a guy who goes days without speaking a word.
did you see Helenas response? He's trying to sell himself and getting upset (in the dream) that she's not biting.
He has everything in the world to be proud about and yet stalled when a woman was making eye contact with him. Not just an accidental glance, she made full eye contact. He's obviously upset. this is not the first time he said a woman has given him attention and he's stalled. He's said so himself.
[ - ] Love240 1 point 4 daysMay 30, 2025 15:48:38 ago (+1/-0)
If you see the GrapheneOS phone as an extension of himself, okay.
But the fact that he IS selling it in the dream tells me it's not a confidence issue.
His growing frustration in the dream is not about his lack of confidence, it's about the lack of meaningful connection and understanding others are able to make, or their inability, rather.
It's frustration at feeling like you are alone even when you have all the information available and can explain it in great detail, and yet you are still alone because they cannot comprehend or make a meaningful connection.
It requires them to paralyze you still, hook-into the temples, maintain the human brain in a semi-awake state (i.e. its too much, its tiresome & exhausting), and its painful (regardless of the duration).
This also comes with sleep deprivation, in total! So the entire sleep session is not only exhausting because it requires brain energy to receive, the hours "slept" are severely less than 8.
I had an extremely realistic dream a few weeks ago. It was so "real" that after waking up my first thoughts were that it was implanted into my mind! Before I came fully awake I was wondering if some zog was responsible for it trying to figure out exactly who I am. Then I woke up enough to know that any zog that wants to know who we are already knows. LOL.
I was always nice to this guy. He may not know it, but we had worked together on Ruqqus where I went by a different name. And for a long time I stood up for him. And one day he flipped out on me for no reason.
So he's mad at me today because of this post and is lashing out.
But I'm always fair to him, for example I used science to determine he's not indian nor jewish https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34 . But he still bans and censors me and acts crazy like this: https://files.catbox.moe/b86xf6.png')" class="expand" href="https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34">https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34 . But he still bans and censors me and acts crazy like this: https://files.catbox.moe/b86xf6.png">https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34">https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34 . But he still bans and censors me and acts crazy like this: https://files.catbox.moe/b86xf6.png
Ive had a similar experience with him. I have stood up for him when others picked on him but he seems as cold and distrustful of me as anyone else . He doesn’t seem to appreciate any kindness. I believe he has paranoid personality disorder
[ + ] lord_nougat
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[ + ] PostWallHelena
[ - ] PostWallHelena 5 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 13:46:10 ago (+5/-0)
I think there is a niche market for guys with good “battery life” but you have to really put yourself out there and meet a lot of people.
[ + ] Kozel
[ - ] Kozel [op] 4 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 14:02:58 ago (+4/-0)
Come to think of it, I should make a habit of going to this grocery store after the gym. For a few days prior, I was buying some vegetables there and another Russian woman almost broke her neck. And my stupid ass just nodded at her.
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[ + ] Gowithit
[ - ] Gowithit 0 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 14:23:43 ago (+0/-0)
you should work on your self confidence.
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I think Kozel's explanation here is correct. https://www.voat.xyz/viewpost?postid=6839ea14d888a&commentid=6839f2d221256
[ + ] Gowithit
[ - ] Gowithit 0 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 15:38:28 ago (+0/-0)
He has everything in the world to be proud about and yet stalled when a woman was making eye contact with him. Not just an accidental glance, she made full eye contact. He's obviously upset. this is not the first time he said a woman has given him attention and he's stalled. He's said so himself.
[ + ] Love240
[ - ] Love240 1 point 4 daysMay 30, 2025 15:48:38 ago (+1/-0)
But the fact that he IS selling it in the dream tells me it's not a confidence issue.
His growing frustration in the dream is not about his lack of confidence, it's about the lack of meaningful connection and understanding others are able to make, or their inability, rather.
It's frustration at feeling like you are alone even when you have all the information available and can explain it in great detail, and yet you are still alone because they cannot comprehend or make a meaningful connection.
[ + ] PostWallHelena
[ - ] PostWallHelena 0 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 15:07:38 ago (+0/-0)
Maybe because you felt insecure. I just got a vibe that the dream was about your insecurity— fears about being good enough. Just a theory.
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[ + ] CoronaHoax
[ - ] CoronaHoax 0 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 17:05:51 ago (+0/-0)
Nightmares before that included me grabbing demons by the face and biting them in the face. Or otherwise chasing down or beating down demons lol.
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[ + ] PuddinTame
[ - ] PuddinTame 0 points 3 daysMay 31, 2025 06:43:36 ago (+0/-0)
Sounds like typical bitchcraft to me. The way to undermine that is to attack and manipulate them fee-fees....logic and philosophic BS is futile.
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It requires them to paralyze you still, hook-into the temples, maintain the human brain in a semi-awake state (i.e. its too much, its tiresome & exhausting), and its painful (regardless of the duration).
This also comes with sleep deprivation, in total! So the entire sleep session is not only exhausting because it requires brain energy to receive, the hours "slept" are severely less than 8.
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[ - ] BoozyB -1 points 4 daysMay 30, 2025 15:43:24 ago (+0/-1)
Personal experience....
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[ + ] Kozel
[ - ] Kozel [op] 0 points 3 daysMay 30, 2025 18:22:49 ago (+0/-0)*
So I made this meme: https://files.catbox.moe/wgu7jp.jpg
So I've been taking jabs at him ever since and its been building up his resentment. So he often snaps and says some really crazy things.
For exmaple, yesterday he made a post complaining about Ukrainians, and I had retorted with this jab: https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=68397514e5663 ..
So he's mad at me today because of this post and is lashing out.
But I'm always fair to him, for example I used science to determine he's not indian nor jewish https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34 . But he still bans and censors me and acts crazy like this: https://files.catbox.moe/b86xf6.png')" class="expand" href="https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34">https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34 . But he still bans and censors me and acts crazy like this: https://files.catbox.moe/b86xf6.png">https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34">https://www.upgoat.net/viewpost?postid=6800a5bbadb34 . But he still bans and censors me and acts crazy like this: https://files.catbox.moe/b86xf6.png
[ + ] PostWallHelena
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[ + ] Peleg
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