Niggerfaggots, I’ve been studying my ASS off for the last five years. It had always bothered me, not having a college degree. I was a “gifted” child who was reading by three. In my teenage years, I became hypnotized by jewish programming and went down a bad path, making terrible decisions and mistakes, which I take full accountability for and always have since my divorce, quite frankly (I laugh when you guys talk about how terrible women are. I literally gave my ex-husband EVERYTHING in my divorce and he still tries to fuck me over financially every time he can). But I digress.
I was a person who never applied myself educationally. I wanted to be a good role model to my son to show him how perseverance can take you places you never thought possible. I’ve showed him this twice in his young life. We have a bond that’s stronger than I’ve ever had with anyone and he is so proud of me.
I went back to school, but I also woke up to the jew during this time. I watched a microbiologist attempt to tell us how effective vaccines are. I’ve sat through lectures with the most retarded “statistical data” about niggers and how they have it so much worse than us because of their “socioeconomic background”. I sat through it all, cringed, and performed the best I could, knowing my career would be furthered.
Yes, my career is furthered. I got offered my dream job a month ago and I have a nice looking future ahead of me. I have a 3.87 gpa and get to wear two honor cords. I still look good for my age and am healthy.
But I feel NOTHING. I look back at my life and how much different it would have been if my parents weren’t only concerned about themselves and their drinking and their social lives, but actually taught me how to make good relationship choices. I wish my mom hadn’t told me she wished I was never born and emotionally and physically abused me to where I felt there was no other choice but to drink and smoke my life away for 15 years.
Everything I’ve become, I’ve figured out on my own. I’ve been a phoenix more than two times— losing everything, and having to come back. I’m tough, and I persevere.
But here I am, still a product of a jewish system. I have a beautiful and wonderful child, but he’ll be gone soon too, going into a jewish system. I have to get ready for this graduation ceremony and I just don’t care. I feel like a fraud. I’m pissed at myself for being a retard during the formative years of my life.
Edit: Just wanted to say I am overwhelmed and humbled by the amount of support here. Thank you so much, everyone. I love this little corner of the internet we’ve created here!
I'm pissed at myself for being a retard during the formative years of my life.
You simply didn't have the mentorship to avoid that. It's not entirely your fault. Given this post, it's great to see you've ended up conquering your circumstances.
Congratulations on moving in a direction you want to go rather than just going with the flow of entropy.
Both of my college degrees, graduate and postgraduate, are sitting on a file cabinet and haven't been placed on the wall since I moved into my home 10 years ago.
I learned pretty quick that after I was finished with education, it's really not anything close to compare a metric standard of success that one can achieve. I got pretty flustered that a friend that I knew from high school who only had a GED was earning near 10x more on a monthly basis just from working during the time I was getting deeper in debt.
Instead of staying upset, I fostered myself a set of characteristics and improvements and learned how to relate to people more and better as time went by. I had my dream job and I watched the company that I built get murdered by government regulations that were intentionally dubious. Since then, I've been working consistently to better develop bigger goals, and everyone around me tells me that they see me as the only person worthy of having massive success.
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:32:41 ago (+1/-0)
Thank you for the thoughtful post. I was an entrepreneur before this venture and have skills that women pay big bucks for. I’m going around things in a backward way, but I’m ready for it at the moment. Being well-rounded is the way to go.
I can relate to alot of this. Proud of you, dingbat. Just because a man does it, doesn't mean it's masculine. Men & women will agree that when men are shitty, it's because they're behaving femininely. You're ex sounds like a ladyboy. What 'jewish system' is your son going into? University? You seem well equipped to keep him straight and red-pilled, but you're right that the real challenge is plowing through the cringe woke indoctrination.
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:34:35 ago (+1/-0)
He’ll be in university, albeit a more conservative one, so that’s a plus. He is fully aware of the jew and has some j-pilled friends. But it’s still daunting, knowing what he’ll be exposed to. Thank you so much for this supportive comment; I truly appreciate it!
I just wanted to say thank you so much, everyone! I am absolutely humbled by the amount of support I received from you all. I love this little corner of the internet we’ve created here. Thank you, sincerely!
I really relate to a lot you have said here. Especially the mom stuff.
You are not a fraud. You don’t have to buy into their propaganda 100 to enjoy your accomplishment. Be proud of the useful skills you have gained in the process. You are doing great. Focus on the new job and raising your son right. Bet you are proud of that GPA— you should be. Congrats and don’t sweat the past. We all were conned. Nobody is born j-pilled. Some people never catch on. 🏆
It's never too late to git gud. I have many years of drug and alcohol abuse behond me, as well as a marriage that I KNEW was gonna fail on my wedding day. Today my life is pretty damn good. You have come far, and many people from back then are dead or in prison. Good for you. Most everyone was a retard when they were younger.
Nothing you can do about the past there is no point in thinking about it unless its about how you were able to tell everyone and everything that happened to fuck off. Work, buy some land and have it ready for your son when he returns. Hopefully it will pull him out of the belly of the beast sooner. best you can do.
But here I am, still a product of a jewish system.
We all are. But we were once curious, and then also courageous in spite of all lies and propaganda. Keep on, fight's far from over. Congrats on your degree.
I really wanted to go back to school to become a musical therapist recently, but apparently it's a very low paying field. Not really sure what I wanna do anymore, but that sounds awesome. Congrats
People who learn from their parents have it best. But sometimes lessons by example of how not to be are even better. Congratulations, lady. Don't take the ticket and keep eating that elephant one bite at a time.
Well you've got a chance to break that cycle... Prepare your son for the anti-White world and make sure he knows what is actually important so that he's got a head start (and passes that wisdom down the line).
You should be proud of what you've already done, and you still have a purpose/mission greater than yourself. Whatever happens in the world at large, you must still give yourself credit where it is due.
Congratulations, your story should be incentive for people to think its too late to change their lives around. I did something similar, followed the Grateful Dead around from 1986-1995 then settled down and got my degree at 34.
Falling into holes and traps is part of life it seems you've figured out how to avoid those. Congratulations on your job and your son sounds like you did a better job then what you got which is every parents goal.
It's the Jewish meepac MEDIA ENTERTAINMENT EDUCATION PORN ADVERTISING COMPLEX <<< they have spent decades and trillions to do exactly what they did to you.
Itsna fucking war its a new war one that can barely be seen even by us looking for it...
It's the jews don't blame your self it's weird if you come out of it ok this is a trillion dollar war against white woman especially which is the best way to destroy white men and the family.
Keep your head up... pm me I'm good looking about to he 50 though but good guy :)
[ - ] clymer 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:54:02 ago (+1/-0)
Congrats! I also graduated late from being a wayward high school dropout. Finished my undergrad at 32 (Also Cum Laude) -and trust me, I still blame my parents everyday for the bullshit they caused. You'll carry it with you until you die
[ - ] jfroybees 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:40:09 ago (+1/-0)
I didn't go to my graduation. I wasn't gonna spend one extra second at a place around people I didn't have to be around. Getting a degree when you aren't the typical college kid is rougher. Older students usually have real lives to attend to. BUT! I did learn a lot at university because way back then there was educational honor and integrity, the pursuit of truth. There were zero excuses for not performing. The professors were great, I bet, compared to now. You deserve a medal for navigating the total bullshit of today. You can reward yourself and not go.
PS Don't let the past rob you of your victories by wishing to change it. You deserve to be proud of yourself.
You're a success. You did the best you could in a difficult situation. You could not control your parents lack of guidance, nor the Jewish controlled system you were born into but you did control your reaction to those two things by waking up and bettering yourself. Good for you! :)
Great job, dingy! Go have a champagne party. No point ruminating the past, our past is what makes us. You did good despite it all! Your son is proud of you and we are too!
When you say your husband tries to fuck you over financially... does that mean you aren't getting as much of the money he earns as you think you should be getting?
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:36:53 ago (+2/-1)
No, it means he doesn’t even contribute to half of my son’s shit (activities/ insurance/car) even though he makes 400k/year. He doesn’t pay me child support.
Yeah I also had a "dingbat" friend who got divorced and asked for nothing. Didn't do her any good she still had to deal with him, might as well get paid for it. She's good people though. When I scolded her for 10 years lost she said she didn't want anyone to say she was a "gold digger". sigh fuck what all the people say. Not a one of them are paying anything.
I have one dingbat friend too. We scold each other sometimes 😂 The kids figure out their dads are trash, though. That’s been the one thing that’s been tough—watching my son figure it all out and realize his dad doesn’t give a shit about him.
[ + ] SilentByAssociation
[ - ] SilentByAssociation 18 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:10:53 ago (+18/-0)
You simply didn't have the mentorship to avoid that. It's not entirely your fault. Given this post, it's great to see you've ended up conquering your circumstances.
Congratulations on moving in a direction you want to go rather than just going with the flow of entropy.
[ + ] PotatoWhisperer2
[ - ] PotatoWhisperer2 12 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:39:14 ago (+12/-0)
Coming away from it is hard work, and deserves more accolades than we can give.
In a way, there is redemption in hard work and perseverance.
Congrats OP, good luck out there.
[ + ] WNwoman
[ - ] WNwoman 13 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:07:14 ago (+13/-0)
[ + ] TheSimulacra
[ - ] TheSimulacra 12 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 13:58:41 ago (+12/-0)
[ + ] AlexanderMorose13
[ - ] AlexanderMorose13 10 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:21:27 ago (+10/-0)
I learned pretty quick that after I was finished with education, it's really not anything close to compare a metric standard of success that one can achieve. I got pretty flustered that a friend that I knew from high school who only had a GED was earning near 10x more on a monthly basis just from working during the time I was getting deeper in debt.
Instead of staying upset, I fostered myself a set of characteristics and improvements and learned how to relate to people more and better as time went by. I had my dream job and I watched the company that I built get murdered by government regulations that were intentionally dubious. Since then, I've been working consistently to better develop bigger goals, and everyone around me tells me that they see me as the only person worthy of having massive success.
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:32:41 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] VitaminSieg
[ - ] VitaminSieg 9 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:17:08 ago (+9/-0)
Just because a man does it, doesn't mean it's masculine. Men & women will agree that when men are shitty, it's because they're behaving femininely. You're ex sounds like a ladyboy.
What 'jewish system' is your son going into? University? You seem well equipped to keep him straight and red-pilled, but you're right that the real challenge is plowing through the cringe woke indoctrination.
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:34:35 ago (+1/-0)
Thank you so much for this supportive comment; I truly appreciate it!
[ + ] dassar
[ - ] dassar 9 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:16:26 ago (+9/-0)
Welcome to the club.
Big props tho, well done.
[ + ] lord_nougat
[ - ] lord_nougat 8 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:43:08 ago (+8/-0)
pity degrees aren't worth what they used to be, but then what is?!
Want your ex to have an unfortunate accident? I know a guy.
[ + ] Drstrangestgov
[ - ] Drstrangestgov 6 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 15:00:05 ago (+6/-0)
[ + ] lord_nougat
[ - ] lord_nougat 8 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 15:12:30 ago (+8/-0)
...wait
[ + ] Peleg
[ - ] Peleg 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:22:54 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:36:55 ago (+1/-0)
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[ - ] xmasskull 8 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 13:50:35 ago (+8/-0)
[ + ] big_fat_dangus
[ - ] big_fat_dangus 7 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:31:44 ago (+7/-0)
Sounds like someone needs to work on being unburdened by what has been!
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 18:24:38 ago (+3/-0)
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[ - ] deleted 0 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:48:25 ago (+0/-0)
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[ - ] fritz_maurentod 6 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:29:24 ago (+6/-0)
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[ - ] HonkyMcNiggerSpic 6 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 15:44:12 ago (+6/-0)
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[ - ] RMGoetbbels 5 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 19:28:12 ago (+5/-0)
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[ - ] Swej_Ehtsag 2 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 02:40:45 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:44:38 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] Love240
[ - ] Love240 5 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 13:59:57 ago (+5/-0)
As far as how you feel; sometimes the war takes it's toll.
Cognitively, it sounds like you are on top of it, so all I've got to say is walk it out and godspeed, ma'am.
Don't give up on your boy. Use that relationship to give him what you didn't have; the wisdom that now abides in you.
[ + ] PeckerwoodPerry
[ - ] PeckerwoodPerry 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:32:41 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] Master_Foo
[ - ] Master_Foo 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:50:38 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 18:20:45 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] GreatSatan
[ - ] GreatSatan 0 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:53:38 ago (+1/-1)
[ + ] PostWallHelena
[ - ] PostWallHelena 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:20:30 ago (+4/-0)
You are not a fraud. You don’t have to buy into their propaganda 100 to enjoy your accomplishment. Be proud of the useful skills you have gained in the process. You are doing great. Focus on the new job and raising your son right. Bet you are proud of that GPA— you should be. Congrats and don’t sweat the past. We all were conned. Nobody is born j-pilled. Some people never catch on. 🏆
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:37:42 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Anus_Expander
[ - ] Anus_Expander 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:02:27 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:36:30 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] SirNiggsalot
[ - ] SirNiggsalot 3 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 00:03:00 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 3 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 02:46:11 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] Gowithit
[ - ] Gowithit 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:19:12 ago (+4/-0)
Congratulations.
[ + ] CowboyHenk
[ - ] CowboyHenk 4 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:07:42 ago (+4/-0)
We all are. But we were once curious, and then also courageous in spite of all lies and propaganda. Keep on, fight's far from over. Congrats on your degree.
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 20:44:42 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] UncleDoug
[ - ] UncleDoug 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 20:42:44 ago (+3/-0)
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[ - ] dingbat [op] 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 21:38:23 ago (+2/-0)
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[ - ] HelenHighwater 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 19:05:49 ago (+3/-0)
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[ - ] ProudRebel 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:27:09 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] Drstrangestgov
[ - ] Drstrangestgov 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:59:13 ago (+3/-0)
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[ - ] rabidR04CH 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:49:54 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] anrach
[ - ] anrach 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 15:57:32 ago (+2/-0)
You should be proud of what you've already done, and you still have a purpose/mission greater than yourself. Whatever happens in the world at large, you must still give yourself credit where it is due.
[ + ] SteppingRazor
[ - ] SteppingRazor 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:34:20 ago (+2/-0)
I did something similar, followed the Grateful Dead around from 1986-1995 then settled down and got my degree at 34.
[ + ] PostWallHelena
[ - ] PostWallHelena 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:22:33 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] MelGlibson
[ - ] MelGlibson 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:24:13 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Cantaloupe
[ - ] Cantaloupe 1 point 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 00:26:57 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] ScheduledSuicide
[ - ] ScheduledSuicide 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 19:27:04 ago (+1/-0)
Maybe you're experiencing Imposter syndrome. It seems to be something that children of narcissists experience a lot.
[ + ] Peleg
[ - ] Peleg 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 18:44:35 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Doglegwarrior
[ - ] Doglegwarrior 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 18:22:16 ago (+1/-0)
It's the Jewish meepac MEDIA ENTERTAINMENT EDUCATION PORN ADVERTISING COMPLEX <<< they have spent decades and trillions to do exactly what they did to you.
Itsna fucking war its a new war one that can barely be seen even by us looking for it...
It's the jews don't blame your self it's weird if you come out of it ok this is a trillion dollar war against white woman especially which is the best way to destroy white men and the family.
Keep your head up... pm me I'm good looking about to he 50 though but good guy :)
[ + ] clymer
[ - ] clymer 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:54:02 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] clymer
[ - ] clymer 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:52:57 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] jfroybees
[ - ] jfroybees 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:40:09 ago (+1/-0)
Getting a degree when you aren't the typical college kid is rougher. Older students usually have real lives to attend to. BUT! I did learn a lot at university because way back then there was educational honor and integrity, the pursuit of truth. There were zero excuses for not performing. The professors were great, I bet, compared to now. You deserve a medal for navigating the total bullshit of today. You can reward yourself and not go.
PS Don't let the past rob you of your victories by wishing to change it. You deserve to be proud of yourself.
[ + ] Hh
[ - ] Hh 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 15:21:43 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] albatrosv15
[ - ] albatrosv15 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:47:36 ago (+2/-1)
[ + ] rapid_water
[ - ] rapid_water 0 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 05:21:18 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Trope
[ - ] Trope 0 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 02:03:16 ago (+0/-0)
You can’t be happy for yourself and your achievements. But I can be happy for you.
Feel this: Congratulations.
[ + ] Ragnar
[ - ] Ragnar 0 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 01:45:35 ago (+0/-0)
No point ruminating the past, our past is what makes us. You did good despite it all! Your son is proud of you and we are too!
[ + ] GreatSatan
[ - ] GreatSatan 0 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 16:52:29 ago (+0/-0)
No but really, good for you! Congrats! 🎉🍾🎊 🎈🥂
[ + ] Conspirologist
[ - ] Conspirologist -1 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 08:36:17 ago (+0/-1)
[ + ] titstitstits
[ - ] titstitstits -1 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:33:05 ago (+0/-1)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 1 point 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:36:53 ago (+2/-1)
P.S., Who’s alt are you?
[ + ] Gowithit
[ - ] Gowithit 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 14:51:18 ago (+3/-1)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 15:47:07 ago (+4/-1)
[ + ] Peleg
[ - ] Peleg 2 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 17:33:25 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] titstitstits
[ - ] titstitstits 0 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 10:39:09 ago (+0/-0)
and doesn't contribute to >your< son's shit???
i think i smell some kind of bullshit...
[ + ] Gowithit
[ - ] Gowithit 0 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 10:55:56 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] dingbat
[ - ] dingbat [op] 0 points 6 monthsDec 13, 2024 12:05:16 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] i_scream_trucks
[ - ] i_scream_trucks -3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 23:48:37 ago (+0/-3)
[ + ] registereduser
[ - ] registereduser -3 points 6 monthsDec 12, 2024 22:36:17 ago (+1/-4)
Now you are going to pay more taxes to the jew, more fees to the jew, make more profit for the jew, buy more plastic garbage from the jew...
and to top it off, you are teaching your garbage DNA progeny to do the same.
Go sit in a bonfire and fuck your self with a rusty morning star, you dumb kike puppet cunt.