Made it 11 days up until Halloween. No real cravings or desire to drink, even with some withdrawal day 4/5 (and I'm not an as heavy or regular drinker as it used to be)
Had some courthouse bullshit, and it being Halloween, I wanted to unwind a bit.
Haven't drank the past two days since, but today have cravings, after handling other unrelated bullshit. So my half extrovert/introvert self is enjoying some drank in mother nature.
I'd say I'm a victim of circumstance, but drinking certainly hasn't helped my domino situation in life in recent months...
Things were pretty good. Now I'm at a loss of direction. I'm just gonna throw in a cliche like, this too shall pass now.
On the bright side, that's still 2 weeks without cocaine! Hooray
Well, as a believer in God, with many Christian friends who care for me, but don't always understand my point of view, I appreciate that... Be nice to find a church that isn't heil jew! though
Well, as a believer in God, with many Christian friends who care for me, but don't always understand my point of view, I appreciate that... Be nice to find a church that isn't heil jew! though
Cocaine is a bar skanks best friend here. It's a womens drug. I hate jews. £70 for a cheap bag(4-6 lines), some of the higher end dealers claim it's 70% cocaine and then tell me the truth(well acquainted from my jobs) it's like 50%. Whores deserve whatever happens.
Put it on a spoon with water and baking soda. Use a lighter underneath. The rocks you're left with will be the portion that is real stuff. The cut will leave a residue on the spoon.
How can you people so casually discuss drug use like niggers?
I rarely meet a straight edge anywhere—even on far right messageboards. A bunch of alkies and stoner hippies and here we have Allagash from Bright Lights, Big City.
It's part of the degenerated culture. The only drugs I've done are caffeine and alcohol. And I've seriously cut back on both. Well, and sugar if you count that.
I didn't drink alcohol until just before 21. Though I've gone hard on it some times while on deployment with friends.
Even the Nazis weren't straight-edge. The key is to have some discipline, control yourself and your vices.
Nice comment. I no longer drink (8 year dry) because it harms your body, which is trying to keep you going, and you tend to lose control. We should never lose our self-control.
I was pretty straight edge until 18. It wasn't even alcohol then. I think I still have a straight edge/christian perspective like, 'do as I say, not what I do', but I don't mind throwing stuff out there like this, when there's other people who can gather something... Wanna go to Philly art museum with Theo and I Sunday?
just went 23 days w/o a beer. Havent gone that long since I was in the Coast Guard and at sea in the 80's. Drink 8 beers a night on the reg. Didnt have a craving. Didnt even think about it.
I feel that's something I can do, I just need to cut it off for a while, cause I (used to) get payed good... Can probably go back, but unemployment isn't amazing, and I like to pick up other work in the off season anyway.
Last time I was there, kinda... May have half told you this story when we were shrooming...
While some friends and I went there on edibles, I split off hoping to meet up with a songwriter friend I had a crush on, who just moved to Philly. She was always the hard to get kinda type, happy alone - yet enjoy the attention waiting for something, like me, each of us with our entourage, but we'd party together, sometimes collaborate live, and attend each other's shows. Yet she left me hanging, but that's just kinda status quo with modern dating (actually I have a tinder reply to get back to, but I'm not in the mood)
Anyways, I had gotten merca from a part time job in the middle of the night where I'd clean actual banks, and blood banks - always careful not to accidentally get stuck with a needle, even though we didn't handle those things that were supposed to be disposed in hazardous waste.
Yet, ended up with a huge lump in armpit, that got painfully lacerated.
Given tramadol - awful constipation - that's another story
So I'm wondering around Philly, admiring Eastern state penitentiary, thinking she'd get back to me again. Ghosted. Whatever... Kinda bar hop waiting on friends, more high than I planned... Sit on a Shakespeare statue, everything glowing more than a normal high
Homeless friendly nigger comes up to me, wondering if I'm okay.
Asks me if I want to go to the park
You got weed? I ask
Nah man, c'mon let's just go to the park, he says, in a soft voice like Oprah in some emotional historic film.
I'm okay
C'mon man, I'll make you feel better.
This nigger really wants to suck my dick
I'm kinda amused and indifferent declining, saying I'm going back to the art gallery, but he's welcome to walk with me.
Gives me good life advice, 'gotta keep your head up man, I had it all and lost everything ' In between inquiries to how he really wanted to suck my dick in the park.
I just laugh, cause everything and him is glowing, like some sort of disguised nigger angel testing me.
Make it back to my friends. 'i don't want to talk about it' Eventually share my day laughing in pain on the van floor from my obstructed bowels
Should've just gone with them to the Van Gogh exhibit, but looking back, I've been in worse places
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:41:47 ago (+1/-0)
Bad news about the ghosting. That selfish chick I was telling you about ghosted me. She was my best pal (other than the missus). Human relations is a minefield.
(in soft Oprah voice) c'mon man, let's go to the park... Things'll get better, you just gotta keep your head up... C'mon man, I wanna suck your dick. Let's go to the park
Alcohol is the only thing keeping me writing this. Therefore, let me stay in your sober house
[ - ] Trope 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 23:18:30 ago (+1/-0)*
I was a drinker. Some of us are wired this way. It has always flooded me with endorphins and made me feel amazing. Much of my youth was partying. While the stoners were actively working to dull a good house party, I was keeping up with all the other alcoholics and keeping the night energetic and passionate.
How can we define alcoholism? What does it really matter when there is a clear statistic that 1 in 6 people elicit a powerful response to it. This explains why normies will say shit like: “Ugh, I’m starting to feel it, I can’t drink anymore.”
I love drunkeness. It fills me full if energy. It hits spots few things can.
In my sobriety, the ONLY option was to chase big goals that could flood me with endorphins like alcohol. I immediately started working two jobs to get out of my financial disposition, interviewed inti a better job, and put all of my income towards buikding a business with my most-trusted friend. Since then, every week is an adventure and I meet all kinds of interesting people and business owners. We share our passions and we work hard to achive a common good. It’s the closest thing to a party but the endorphins are the fruit of our labor and dreams - not a fermented fruit turned to posion.
If you’re going to get sober, don’t be a loser fag about it. AA is full of losers coping with their ruined lives. Pretend each day is a fresh case of beer and hit it hard. Replace alcoholic spirits with your own spirit.
Drugs are fir losers. Imagine smoking weed every day like a faggot. Or being a drunkard who never managed to make much more than minimum wage. That’s more than half my graduating class.
People are going to advise you to find gay hobbies like knitting, instrument, sport. But what can hit the spot like alcohol or addictive substances? It’s success. Building a great life for yourself. And when the average person is living a quiet life with their head down: It’s never been easier to get ahead. And you don’t need drugs to appreciate a life well established.
Once you assume full ownership for where you are in life, you can then work to change things. Accept full accountability for where you’ve gotten in life. Because if you are in charge, then I have some great news for you: You get to decide where it goes from here. Cheers.
[ - ] Not_C 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:25:58 ago (+1/-0)
Spics and injuns need their firewater. You're White. You just need something to do that's better than drinking.
The best thing you can do is to become the Whitest White guy you can be. Every decision, every action, every spare moment you have - You will act like the Whitest White guy you can.
Clean yourself up. Get a haircut, buy a new shirt and pair of jeans. And then hit the gym.
You're lacking purpose in life. To figure out what your purpose is, you need to start by being the Whitest you can be. After that, everything will fall into place.
You have to replace the behavior with something, doesn't matter what it is, but you have to get out of your head and out of your habits for a few weeks. There is an element of psychological weakness associated with addiction and you need to minimize your inclination to indulge that weakness. Get out, go hiking, hit the gym, do something.
I hear you but if you sit, alone with your thoughts, you will fail. Get out, by yourself, and do some shit. I've done every drug known to man, save heroin. I know how strong the call can be. You need to go do things, even if it's out of character because the truth is addiction is the alternative. But, you know the score, I'm not your dad - do as you will.
well yes and no. Fucker set my shit down to like 50 points, took me like 2 years to get to 600. too much work for a website they kill more everyday. I still browse there but it seems like no one cares to converse with me there, that's fine cause I have here.
Good, keep it up. I'm 3 days sober from fapping, gonna try to make it the rest of no nut november. But hey, it doesn't count if someone else makes me nut, right?
Ascribing some fairy tale malevolence to alcohol is counter productive. It's a beverage, not some wizard in a tower. If anything, it gives the alchy an excuse not to quit, as they will lean on the excuse that it's an "evil" that is making them act against their will.
Your takes are retarded and you should stop posting.
[ + ] HeyJames
[ - ] HeyJames 12 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:29:19 ago (+12/-0)
Cocaine is a rich man's drug. Doing it while you're poor will rob you of life
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 5 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:39:40 ago (+5/-0)
[ + ] Swej_Ehtsag
[ - ] Swej_Ehtsag 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 18:12:46 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 18:24:25 ago (+1/-0)
So I'm just on a John Huston film binge
[ + ] Swej_Ehtsag
[ - ] Swej_Ehtsag 0 points 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 13:11:11 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 18:34:22 ago (+0/-0)
So I'm just on a John Huston film binge
[ + ] Clubberlang
[ - ] Clubberlang 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:50:11 ago (+0/-0)
Feel your pain. Although there are a few on here that get it.
[ + ] HeyJames
[ - ] HeyJames 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 20:08:08 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:28:05 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:54:55 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Laputois
[ - ] Laputois 0 points 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 12:18:06 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] DivineLight2
[ - ] DivineLight2 -1 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:04:05 ago (+1/-2)
£70 for a cheap bag(4-6 lines), some of the higher end dealers claim it's 70% cocaine and then tell me the truth(well acquainted from my jobs) it's like 50%. Whores deserve whatever happens.
[ + ] HeyJames
[ - ] HeyJames 0 points 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 09:10:26 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] GrayDragon
[ - ] GrayDragon 8 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:57:18 ago (+8/-0)
[ + ] bonghits4jeebus
[ - ] bonghits4jeebus 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 18:06:15 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] TheBigGuyFromQueens
[ - ] TheBigGuyFromQueens 5 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:34:57 ago (+6/-1)*
I rarely meet a straight edge anywhere—even on far right messageboards. A bunch of alkies and stoner hippies and here we have Allagash from Bright Lights, Big City.
[ + ] PotatoWhisperer2
[ - ] PotatoWhisperer2 4 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:49:57 ago (+4/-0)
I didn't drink alcohol until just before 21. Though I've gone hard on it some times while on deployment with friends.
Even the Nazis weren't straight-edge. The key is to have some discipline, control yourself and your vices.
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 2 points 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:35:16 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Clubberlang
[ - ] Clubberlang 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:51:44 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] NukeAmerica
[ - ] NukeAmerica 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:06:11 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] TheBigGuyFromQueens
[ - ] TheBigGuyFromQueens 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:09:19 ago (+3/-1)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:14:21 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] TheBigGuyFromQueens
[ - ] TheBigGuyFromQueens 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:21:01 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:36:37 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] deleted
[ - ] deleted 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 18:24:55 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] TheOriginal1Icemonkey
[ - ] TheOriginal1Icemonkey 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 23:31:18 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] anthonylancer
[ - ] anthonylancer 5 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:26:39 ago (+5/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 3 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:41:54 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] beece
[ - ] beece 4 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:46:33 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] chrimony
[ - ] chrimony 4 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:44:23 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:37:28 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] big_fat_dangus
[ - ] big_fat_dangus 3 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:54:36 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] GrayDragon
[ - ] GrayDragon 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:58:09 ago (+1/-0)*
You wanna start no drink November and December? This will kill both of us!
E: You know I am honorable. I know you, while a dick, are 100% honorable.
[ + ] big_fat_dangus
[ - ] big_fat_dangus 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:03:15 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] con77
[ - ] con77 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:49:22 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:05:44 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Clubberlang
[ - ] Clubberlang 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:59:59 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ]deleted
[ - ] deleted 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:42:00 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] TheodoreKent
[ - ] TheodoreKent 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:00:42 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:30:30 ago (+1/-0)
Last time I was there, kinda... May have half told you this story when we were shrooming...
While some friends and I went there on edibles, I split off hoping to meet up with a songwriter friend I had a crush on, who just moved to Philly. She was always the hard to get kinda type, happy alone - yet enjoy the attention waiting for something, like me, each of us with our entourage, but we'd party together, sometimes collaborate live, and attend each other's shows. Yet she left me hanging, but that's just kinda status quo with modern dating (actually I have a tinder reply to get back to, but I'm not in the mood)
Anyways, I had gotten merca from a part time job in the middle of the night where I'd clean actual banks, and blood banks - always careful not to accidentally get stuck with a needle, even though we didn't handle those things that were supposed to be disposed in hazardous waste.
Yet, ended up with a huge lump in armpit, that got painfully lacerated.
Given tramadol - awful constipation - that's another story
So I'm wondering around Philly, admiring Eastern state penitentiary, thinking she'd get back to me again. Ghosted. Whatever... Kinda bar hop waiting on friends, more high than I planned... Sit on a Shakespeare statue, everything glowing more than a normal high
Homeless friendly nigger comes up to me, wondering if I'm okay.
Asks me if I want to go to the park
You got weed? I ask
Nah man, c'mon let's just go to the park, he says, in a soft voice like Oprah in some emotional historic film.
I'm okay
C'mon man, I'll make you feel better.
This nigger really wants to suck my dick
I'm kinda amused and indifferent declining, saying I'm going back to the art gallery, but he's welcome to walk with me.
Gives me good life advice, 'gotta keep your head up man, I had it all and lost everything '
In between inquiries to how he really wanted to suck my dick in the park.
I just laugh, cause everything and him is glowing, like some sort of disguised nigger angel testing me.
Make it back to my friends.
'i don't want to talk about it'
Eventually share my day laughing in pain on the van floor from my obstructed bowels
Should've just gone with them to the Van Gogh exhibit, but looking back, I've been in worse places
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:41:47 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] TheodoreKent
[ - ] TheodoreKent 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:55:03 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] FacelessOne
[ - ] FacelessOne 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:00:36 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] TheodoreKent
[ - ] TheodoreKent 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:15:07 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:19:03 ago (+1/-0)
Alcohol is the only thing keeping me writing this. Therefore, let me stay in your sober house
[ + ] TheodoreKent
[ - ] TheodoreKent 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 16:14:08 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Clubberlang
[ - ] Clubberlang 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:58:32 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 22:32:43 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Clubberlang
[ - ] Clubberlang 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:56:52 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:30:55 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 08:45:07 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] DeusExMachina
[ - ] DeusExMachina 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 01:24:03 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] BoraxTheFungarian
[ - ] BoraxTheFungarian 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 01:20:56 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Trope
[ - ] Trope 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 23:18:30 ago (+1/-0)*
How can we define alcoholism? What does it really matter when there is a clear statistic that 1 in 6 people elicit a powerful response to it. This explains why normies will say shit like: “Ugh, I’m starting to feel it, I can’t drink anymore.”
I love drunkeness. It fills me full if energy. It hits spots few things can.
In my sobriety, the ONLY option was to chase big goals that could flood me with endorphins like alcohol. I immediately started working two jobs to get out of my financial disposition, interviewed inti a better job, and put all of my income towards buikding a business with my most-trusted friend. Since then, every week is an adventure and I meet all kinds of interesting people and business owners. We share our passions and we work hard to achive a common good. It’s the closest thing to a party but the endorphins are the fruit of our labor and dreams - not a fermented fruit turned to posion.
If you’re going to get sober, don’t be a loser fag about it. AA is full of losers coping with their ruined lives. Pretend each day is a fresh case of beer and hit it hard. Replace alcoholic spirits with your own spirit.
Drugs are fir losers. Imagine smoking weed every day like a faggot. Or being a drunkard who never managed to make much more than minimum wage. That’s more than half my graduating class.
People are going to advise you to find gay hobbies like knitting, instrument, sport. But what can hit the spot like alcohol or addictive substances? It’s success. Building a great life for yourself. And when the average person is living a quiet life with their head down: It’s never been easier to get ahead. And you don’t need drugs to appreciate a life well established.
Once you assume full ownership for where you are in life, you can then work to change things. Accept full accountability for where you’ve gotten in life. Because if you are in charge, then I have some great news for you: You get to decide where it goes from here. Cheers.
[ + ] Clubberlang
[ - ] Clubberlang 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:48:38 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 21:59:41 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Not_C
[ - ] Not_C 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:25:58 ago (+1/-0)
You're White.
You just need something to do that's better than drinking.
The best thing you can do is to become the Whitest White guy you can be.
Every decision, every action, every spare moment you have - You will act like the Whitest White guy you can.
Clean yourself up. Get a haircut, buy a new shirt and pair of jeans. And then hit the gym.
You're lacking purpose in life. To figure out what your purpose is, you need to start by being the Whitest you can be. After that, everything will fall into place.
[ + ] deleted
[ - ] deleted 2 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 18:30:23 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] Laputois
[ - ] Laputois 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 12:23:28 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:30:35 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:46:45 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Indoctrinated_USA
[ - ] Indoctrinated_USA 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 16:52:26 ago (+1/-0)
There is an element of psychological weakness associated with addiction and you need to minimize your inclination to indulge that weakness.
Get out, go hiking, hit the gym, do something.
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 17:09:58 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Indoctrinated_USA
[ - ] Indoctrinated_USA 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 19:43:57 ago (+1/-0)
Get out, by yourself, and do some shit.
I've done every drug known to man, save heroin.
I know how strong the call can be.
You need to go do things, even if it's out of character because the truth is addiction is the alternative.
But, you know the score, I'm not your dad - do as you will.
[ + ] DestroyerofSquirrels
[ - ] DestroyerofSquirrels 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 16:26:57 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 16:43:39 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] DestroyerofSquirrels
[ - ] DestroyerofSquirrels 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 22:02:40 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] NukeAmerica
[ - ] NukeAmerica 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:05:07 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Smedleys_Butler
[ - ] Smedleys_Butler [op] 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 15:07:03 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] NaturalSelectionistWorker
[ - ] NaturalSelectionistWorker 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 14:36:57 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] TheOriginal1Icemonkey
[ - ] TheOriginal1Icemonkey 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 23:28:27 ago (+0/-0)
And, AA is for losers.
[ + ] Love240
[ - ] Love240 0 points 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:53:45 ago (+4/-4)
Cutting it out and fighting those cravings is the way.
Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. James 4:7
Good job making those first steps. Be strong and don't give up.
[ + ] big_fat_dangus
[ - ] big_fat_dangus 1 point 6 monthsNov 3, 2023 13:57:54 ago (+3/-2)
Your takes are retarded and you should stop posting.
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 6 monthsNov 4, 2023 04:45:44 ago (+1/-0)