My entire life, well the fuckin joke that is my life, is a perpetual disaster. Everything is falling apart currently. I'm packing all of my stuff and i have no idea where I'm going. I wish everything would just end right now. This life has already been fucking hell. I have nobody. no family, no home, no roots, no support network, no memories. just a blur of chaos and confusion. I'm wasting away in a foreign country. I really don't know what to do. I was meant to have a purpose. me and my entire life is a fucking waste. I just wish there was some purpose i could fulfill. just one meaningful thing. I look back at the trail of my pathetic life and it just disgusts me. I'm completely broken, ruined, etc..
I'm sorry you're going through this right now. I've been there, everything I owned fit in a backpack at the time. I felt like shit, like a fuckin loser. I know it sucks. If you want to talk about it DM me, I might not be able to help but I'll actually listen. Keep your chin up, bro. At least you're not a nigger.
Coz niggers don't write like this. But he could be a kike acting out muh White fatalist loser bs. But I will assume he is not. Yeah alot of us are going through clown world and I hear you OP.
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 08:41:36 ago (+1/-0)
thanks. yeah im real. yeah everything is shit. idk about the insults, doesn't affect me. I already consider myself an enormous piece of shit/failure, so I doubt anyone else can offend me.
"At least you're not a nigger". There's so much more truth to that statement than a cliche line. Say what you will but in this country that says a LOT!
What does this country have to do with it? USA is the most nigger loving country. Not being a nigger is about not needing a huge welfare state to enable your existence.
Loosing all that material shit and being solo for a while will build character.
Keep your heart in the right and it will all eventually be fine.
Be strong, hold yer head high bro.
I struggled and still stuggle with many of the same things you mentioned. Sorry i dont have a miracle solution for you. Life is wacky in general; especially now, but it will all work out in the end. Its weird but it always somehow eventually does. Adapt n overcome.
To be completly functional in a disfunctional society isn't a good thing. We struggle for a reason.
May gods grace be with you.
\o
Ps. Fuk em if they cant take a joke and joke em if they cant take a fuk
Dont sweat the petty stuff, pet the sweatty stuff;)
the worst part is everyone else seems to be successful in some sense. i have tons of skills, tons of experience, but I can't catch a break. fuking broke and only receive a va check. I should have killed myself when I was 14 when I was serious. Because everything that has happened since has been a disaster. Now i'm 42, loser, broke, nobody will every hire me or take me seriously. I know people who can't tie their shoes yet they make 6 figures online. I hate everything and I want to see the world burn, in fact, I wish I could light the fuse
Yer gonna be fine. You were born naked with nothing. Being broke is nothing more than being back to normal.
Our nomadic ancestors ran around most of their lives fighting the elements and constantly scavenging for food. No refrigerator, no hot water, no gortex, no car, no phone.
Playing around with perspectives like that can help rationalize our trials n tribulations.
Maybe go on a monk mission?
Personally, ive tried fasting. Did 72 hours a couple weeks ago and it was weird. I felt strong and mentally refreshed afterwards. I didnt eat and still managed to hike in the hills from 4am till 4pm the last day. Plus being out hiking and stops the urge of opening the refrigerator that is constantly staring at me. lol
A fast forces our mitochondria to eat up free radicals and weak or damaged cells. In the end the remaining cells and mitochondria are stronger than before. Drink lots of water as this will force the body to clear toxins.
It's not an easy process, the first 48 hours are the hardest and i became real sensitive to peoples energies- i just wanted to be alone mostly. 0 drama.
Im doing it again now, currently at 24hrs. Im gonna shoot for 96hrs and see what i get out of that.
Last time it was gross. Afterward i shat (hershey squirts) out all this smelly black death gew. I think it was what is called "mucoid plack", which is toxic buildup in the intestinal tract. Basically that shit makes our digestion less efficient in getting nutrients out of our bodies.
We are getting old and doing a cleanse every now and again is necessary. We;in the modern age, are exposed to lots of toxins and some of them build up in our bodies. This can create mind fog and other health issues.
One thing is i save money on food, and i realize i don't need this food eating stigma, most people have.
Its really a practice of self control. Gain control of the emotions and the mind. What it did to me kinda felt like trippin on mild shrooms. The phrase "Even keeled" comes to mind.
Just something to think about. Fasting might not be what you need right this second, but maybe in the future.
I feel like i need a real purpose too. Feel like im just wasting time sometimes.
Failing at somthing, just means you tried. All people who succede succeed have failed many times in the past. Just keep trying.
Good times bad times i know i had my share, Robert Plant Led Zepplin
I was ostracised from a very young age. literally by all sides of my family. I wish my parents would have put me up for adoption or just aborted me like they were planning. I was passed around to different aunts/uncles, extended family members, until everyone was sick of me, and I was nothing but a problem for everyone. My self/world concept was built upon this foundation, being nothing but a problem for others. I realize that my parents and my entire family hated me. I suffered through it until I was 14 and I emancipated myself. This story has so many details that I'm leaving out. It was hell. My life was slavery until I escaped. literally forced to work hard labor while other kids were being kids. I saved up $13k by the time I was 14, then my parents stole. They already had tons of money because they had ver successful careers, plus they won 3.4M in the powerball lottery in kentucky. They forced me to take ritalin. I was literally the first kid in the entire state to be forced onto this shit. They announced it over the intercom in school for me to go to the priincipals office every day and take this shit. flayed and humiliated over and over every day for my entire childhood. not only did my parents, my family hate me but every other kid in my county hated me, beat the shit out of me every day. life was pure hell. school was torture, after school was more torture and hard labor. by the time I finally stood up to my abusive father, I almost killed him, broke his hand, his nose, and I was going after his throat. all out of self defense. My stepmom was a nurse practitioner, she had lots of pull in the hospital, had me locked in the psych ward for a month by her friends, tied me to a bed in 4 point restraints for 2 days. I have scars that will never heal. I look back and wonder why this shit happened to me, because I was a good kid. And this is only the tip of the iceberg. After the military, the government came afteer me. Thiss is why I live in Ecuador. my life is shambles. I'm scared to fly back actually, because I have no idea what they have fabricated against me over the years, and they might just arrest me in customs and bury me in the system. I've already had an experience like this as well.. Someone, oor something has it out for me. aside from the nightmare of my childhood, something in the goverment has been following me around and fucking with me since I got out of the marines. antoher long story.
jerd those are some heavy experiences. i cant really relate to some of that. i had it purdy good as a youth, got lucky there.
if you speak spanish without an accent, and you look younger than your age you can just dress like a young mariachi guitarist and walk across the border. Say your name is Manuel LaBour. they will prolly fly you somewhere nice for free. i hear marthas vinyard is off limits though (thats a news joke you may or may not get).
Manuel Labour...lol
no seriously. most legal things have a statute of limitations... i think 7 years accept for fraud. (this is not legal advice) you could talk to a lier i mean lawyer.
what do you mean by "something" is following you? did you mean someone?
as far as having a fear of material possessions, living out of a backpack seems like a mentally comfortable option for you. i tried backpacking for a stint. it's a hard livin, not my personal cup of tea. road dog. or should i say, not my cup o cowboy drop (coffee) mud water.
seems like you had hard times early on and successfully overcame them by escaping.
now you are in tough times again. you; i'm assuming, made it through boot camp (another achievement) im sure you can use your skills to navigate this current situation as well. another challenge presents itself.
as far as a true purpose, i hope you find it. when you do let me know how you did it cuz im still werkin on that one as well.
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 09:31:22 ago (+1/-0)
fyi, I'm a minimalist already, I have very few personal possesions, no guns, no motorcycle, no car, no toys of any kind. I don't own or watch tv. I don't even have a cell phone. material things have never been important to me, in fact, I get anxiety when I have too much stuff and I usually end up giving everything away. the only thing i want, is to be aligned with my true purpose. idk what that is
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 09:35:34 ago (+1/-0)
one weird thing, not sure if it matters, I don't age. I literally haven't changed in 20+ years. in fact, i typically tell people I'm 28 or so because they think i'm lying if I say my true age. This has become a weird issue for me. When people find out my age they're always in shock, or they don't beleive me, so any respect or trust goes out the window immediately. The first impression is always a challenge for me. i just want to be alone now. I don't want anyone to see me because it's getting to be too much, i feel like a spectacle.
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 10:09:35 ago (+1/-0)
I'm very experienced and highly competent in my field. I hung it up when the government fucked my life up. plus there's not much incentive to work in my field anymore, its not worth the pay and the toll on the body/health.why should i work for less than $50k per year in this if idiots can make 6+ figures working online, aand they can't even tie their shoes. I have friend here who is a "consultant" makes $50k per month, doing absolutely nothing. a stiff breeze would break this guy, he's totally useless. So ill-equipped I literally have to tell him how to live life. I just deleted all my contacts yesterday, burnt all bridges.
living here is ruining me. I need to find a different path. I've been out of the usa since before the plandemic. Everything has almost tripled in cost. I have no home, no family to go to, no job, it's literally impossible for me to go back. And I'm useless here.
You can build up from that. Takes a lot of work and careful spending though. Get through university, they'll give you even more cash to sit around co-eds bullshitting papers and whatnot. Or take them up on their jobs training programs. Doesn't matter if you have an idea of what you want, they'll help ya out.
Of course this depends on how your area supports vets, some are great, others'll spit on you. If you're up for moving look around for places with large VA facilities, likely they'll do at least OK considering the cash spent on it.
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 09:04:36 ago (+1/-0)
money dude. people have suggested I start a business, build a family, hire a lawyer. not sure if the message isn't clear but, IM FUCKING BROKE, BANKRUPT, CREDIT RUINED, NOBODY WILL FUCKING HIRE ME BECAUSE THE VA/MILITARY COMPLETELY DESTROYED MY LIFE
Do it. All the worst people are at the US Capitol Building right now. Make your mark on the world that people for generations will remember. (In Minecraft)
do it? do what? we control meteorites now? you know what would be a pretty hard sell for a false flag, "white supremacists hurl meteorite into new york". lol
Start slowly on the path up - one step at a time. Don't compare yourself to others. Surely you can find work picking fruit in California? I'm sure VA has job-assistance programs?
You will require the understanding that the Israelites spoken of in The Books(Bible) are indeed the White Race. The "jews" are the edomites from Esau who racially mixed with Canaanite women from the Hittite tribe that are direct descendants of Cain(the son of satan).
Hence, those who call themselves Judean's, and are not, but rather the synagogue of satan. Revelation 2:9;3:9.
Life is strange. I've had times like what you describe and I've also had mind boggling success. I'm currently doing well but you have to understand that everything about your life can change dramatically even in a single day.
You're miserable because you're not meeting your fate. You know deep down that you're meant for more and you're angry at yourself for not doing so. Your very misery is pushing you away from your current life and towards your fate. Solve that.
It sounds like step 1 is to figure out what "home" means to you and go there.
And btw I know someone who went to S America traveling and just living there for a while. He was also broke, came back to somewhere that felt like home, and is doing great now. He's about your age too. So that's proof that you just need to chill and just think about what you want in your life, and how you will get that.
So, stop practicing satanism first of all. It's entire ideology is one of giving up and not caring about the future, and it's probably partially why you're in this situation.
fuking broke and only receive a va check.
So you're a veteran. Did you actually see combat or were you in non combat roles? The reason I'm asking is if you can return home, the optics towards the invading southerners and the cartels is shifting negatively for them, thanks is large part to Texas's actions. If you did see combat, your skills would be useful in training mercs to fight the cartels.
Yo bro sending prayer your way don't know where or who you are but go find a Salvation Army chapel even if you're not religious they'll hook you up with at least food package shower and someone whose been through that shit to talk to and if a good citadel and you're not too far through the cracks there's gonna be a bed and job somewhere around the group.
Hit up all the services you can and make sure they don't forget you.
Broken, not dead means fixable. Sounds to me like you got a blank slate there unless somethings chasing ya.
"I have nobody. no family, no home, no roots, no support network, no memories."
How is this possible? And how do you have Internet access to post?
If it makes you feel better, I'm going to be 50, live in my brother's basement, the main sewage line backed up on Christmas and overflowed my downstair's bathroom, I chipped one of my teeth because they are a mess, I have no legacy, I am an alcoholic, and my only purpose now is to hoard money for no apparent fucking reason other than to wait for death.
I still carry on. Hopefully your life is not truly as bad as you state. Godspeed, fellow loser.
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 00:46:33 ago (+1/-0)
You're wrong - you have Voat. It ain't much but it's a handle to keep you upright. You need to get back to the States asap 'cos living in a foreign place (South America) is amplifying your feelings of social isolation. Then get a job; work on making yourself amenable to folks (best keep any extreme beliefs to yourself); and start trying to establish those all important social bonds.
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 08:48:23 ago (+1/-0)
every time i go back, things get worse. I end up more fucked up, depressed, etc. I honestly don't know what to do. I'm stuck in place, paralysis of analysis, etc. I feel like everything is just a hot gray fog. There is no clarity in anything and every possible path presents more problems and confusion. I'm mentally overwhelmed and I seriously feel frozen. I feel like any path I choose, will be a repeat of past mistakes, so I do nothing. I'm the biggest waste of potential.
Reading through all the comments, looking back at the haze of yesterday, the bottle of gin and the bloody broken tiles in the bathroom(why do we always punch things?). Thanks goats, sincerely. not sure what to do. I definitely burnt some bridges over the past few days, but there must be a better path ahead. this country is a pile of shit, but its what I can afford right now. Unless a miracle lands in my lap, I won't be able to afford to live in the usa in the forseeble future. not sure how to get ahead because there's no opportunity in this shithole. I just have no leverage. no path, no purpose.. oh well,at least i have voat
Start a small business. Make it successful. That will keep you busy. Go to the gym and train hard. You aren't going to get much free time to bitch about your life.
You don't need a homework assignment piled on you, but until you do this one thing, you will be stuck on spin cycle.
That one thing is that you need to find and list what is important to you...the things that you believe. Write them down. Then reflect on it and come up with a goal that reflects what is important to you. Then do a rewrite. List what you will do to get to that goal. Your future will thank you for this.
It is much harder than it sounds - however, anyone who can accomplish it will be the lead dog in their much happier and fulfilled life. I was stuck in a shit dead end job working for a retarded douchnossel I'd learned to hate when I finally came to that party. I'd had Strawberry Fields Forever spinning daily in my head, near endlessly. ("Living is easy, with eye's closed, misunderstanding what you see"). Looking back, I thought it had applied to my boss...but no, not him, it was all about me. Always was.
Not kidding. Changed my life. Best to you brother, don't fucking give up. Never give up. Spend most of your time looking forward. What is important to you. Find that. Make a goal. You will find success and happiness. Plenty of time for you left to do so.
your advice seems very "christlike". I'm sure you've heard this before, take your advice, and shove it up your ass. your self righteous superiority won't accomplish shit. you will end up in the same grave as the rest of us.
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But I will assume he is not.
Yeah alot of us are going through clown world and I hear you OP.
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There's so much more truth to that statement than a cliche line. Say what you will but in this country that says a LOT!
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Loosing all that material shit and being solo for a while will build character.
Keep your heart in the right and it will all eventually be fine.
Be strong, hold yer head high bro.
I struggled and still stuggle with many of the same things you mentioned. Sorry i dont have a miracle solution for you. Life is wacky in general; especially now, but it will all work out in the end. Its weird but it always somehow eventually does. Adapt n overcome.
To be completly functional in a disfunctional society isn't a good thing.
We struggle for a reason.
May gods grace be with you.
\o
Ps.
Fuk em if they cant take a joke and joke em if they cant take a fuk
Dont sweat the petty stuff, pet the sweatty stuff;)
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You were born naked with nothing. Being broke is nothing more than being back to normal.
Our nomadic ancestors ran around most of their lives fighting the elements and constantly scavenging for food. No refrigerator, no hot water, no gortex, no car, no phone.
Playing around with perspectives like that can help rationalize our trials n tribulations.
Maybe go on a monk mission?
Personally, ive tried fasting. Did 72 hours a couple weeks ago and it was weird. I felt strong and mentally refreshed afterwards. I didnt eat and still managed to hike in the hills from 4am till 4pm the last day. Plus being out hiking and stops the urge of opening the refrigerator that is constantly staring at me. lol
A fast forces our mitochondria to eat up free radicals and weak or damaged cells. In the end the remaining cells and mitochondria are stronger than before. Drink lots of water as this will force the body to clear toxins.
It's not an easy process, the first 48 hours are the hardest and i became real sensitive to peoples energies- i just wanted to be alone mostly. 0 drama.
Im doing it again now, currently at 24hrs. Im gonna shoot for 96hrs and see what i get out of that.
Last time it was gross. Afterward i shat (hershey squirts) out all this smelly black death gew. I think it was what is called "mucoid plack", which is toxic buildup in the intestinal tract. Basically that shit makes our digestion less efficient in getting nutrients out of our bodies.
We are getting old and doing a cleanse every now and again is necessary. We;in the modern age, are exposed to lots of toxins and some of them build up in our bodies. This can create mind fog and other health issues.
One thing is i save money on food, and i realize i don't need this food eating stigma, most people have.
Its really a practice of self control. Gain control of the emotions and the mind. What it did to me kinda felt like trippin on mild shrooms. The phrase "Even keeled" comes to mind.
Just something to think about. Fasting might not be what you need right this second, but maybe in the future.
I feel like i need a real purpose too. Feel like im just wasting time sometimes.
Failing at somthing, just means you tried. All people who succede succeed have failed many times in the past. Just keep trying.
Good times bad times i know i had my share, Robert Plant Led Zepplin
Good times
\o
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if you speak spanish without an accent, and you look younger than your age you can just dress like a young mariachi guitarist and walk across the border. Say your name is Manuel LaBour. they will prolly fly you somewhere nice for free. i hear marthas vinyard is off limits though (thats a news joke you may or may not get).
Manuel Labour...lol
no seriously. most legal things have a statute of limitations... i think 7 years accept for fraud. (this is not legal advice) you could talk to a lier i mean lawyer.
what do you mean by "something" is following you? did you mean someone?
as far as having a fear of material possessions, living out of a backpack seems like a mentally comfortable option for you. i tried backpacking for a stint. it's a hard livin, not my personal cup of tea. road dog. or should i say, not my cup o cowboy drop (coffee) mud water.
seems like you had hard times early on and successfully overcame them by escaping.
now you are in tough times again. you; i'm assuming, made it through boot camp (another achievement) im sure you can use your skills to navigate this current situation as well. another challenge presents itself.
as far as a true purpose, i hope you find it. when you do let me know how you did it cuz im still werkin on that one as well.
stay true to your heart, be viligant.
god speed
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Got me motor going again
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Hope it helps Jerd out as well
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Monthly?
You can build up from that. Takes a lot of work and careful spending though. Get through university, they'll give you even more cash to sit around co-eds bullshitting papers and whatnot. Or take them up on their jobs training programs. Doesn't matter if you have an idea of what you want, they'll help ya out.
Of course this depends on how your area supports vets, some are great, others'll spit on you. If you're up for moving look around for places with large VA facilities, likely they'll do at least OK considering the cash spent on it.
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Again though, depends on the area. My place is fan-fucking-tastic. Well... For a VA anyways lol.
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[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:01:59 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] NukeAmerica
[ - ] NukeAmerica 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 01:42:16 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 01:44:47 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 01:45:41 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 00:52:35 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Doglegwarrior
[ - ] Doglegwarrior 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 01:35:42 ago (+0/-0)
Dm if ya need some motivation or just to chat I'm pretty down right now after experiencing a demonic narrcicist ex girl friend.
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 22:29:15 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] i_scream_trucks
[ - ] i_scream_trucks 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:51:48 ago (+0/-0)
I'm talking to myself again.
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:05:07 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ]deleted
[ - ] deleted 3 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 05:24:41 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:42:16 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] deleted
[ - ] deleted 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 18:56:51 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:04:17 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Youaresosmart
[ - ] Youaresosmart 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 8, 2023 04:25:05 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 8, 2023 09:04:22 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Youaresosmart
[ - ] Youaresosmart 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 8, 2023 13:04:23 ago (+0/-0)
Hence, those who call themselves Judean's, and are not, but rather the synagogue of satan. Revelation 2:9;3:9.
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 8, 2023 21:30:17 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] SecretHitler
[ - ] SecretHitler 3 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 02:13:16 ago (+3/-0)
You're miserable because you're not meeting your fate. You know deep down that you're meant for more and you're angry at yourself for not doing so. Your very misery is pushing you away from your current life and towards your fate. Solve that.
It sounds like step 1 is to figure out what "home" means to you and go there.
And btw I know someone who went to S America traveling and just living there for a while. He was also broke, came back to somewhere that felt like home, and is doing great now. He's about your age too. So that's proof that you just need to chill and just think about what you want in your life, and how you will get that.
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:40:45 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] s23erdctfvyg
[ - ] s23erdctfvyg 3 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 23:50:22 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] Peleg
[ - ] Peleg 3 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:00:58 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] BoozyB
[ - ] BoozyB 3 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 21:27:39 ago (+3/-0)
[ + ] lord_nougat
[ - ] lord_nougat 2 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 21:24:58 ago (+2/-0)
[ + ] i_scream_trucks
[ - ] i_scream_trucks 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:50:57 ago (+1/-0)
Hit up all the services you can and make sure they don't forget you.
Broken, not dead means fixable. Sounds to me like you got a blank slate there unless somethings chasing ya.
Dont do dumb shit you'll regret later.
God bless.
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:08:17 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 8, 2023 09:01:51 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Doglegwarrior
[ - ] Doglegwarrior 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 01:33:24 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] albatrosv15
[ - ] albatrosv15 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 02:46:24 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] i_scream_trucks
[ - ] i_scream_trucks 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:28:47 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:43:13 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 08:34:54 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] GrayDragon
[ - ] GrayDragon 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 01:01:36 ago (+1/-0)*
How is this possible? And how do you have Internet access to post?
If it makes you feel better, I'm going to be 50, live in my brother's basement, the main sewage line backed up on Christmas and overflowed my downstair's bathroom, I chipped one of my teeth because they are a mess, I have no legacy, I am an alcoholic, and my only purpose now is to hoard money for no apparent fucking reason other than to wait for death.
I still carry on. Hopefully your life is not truly as bad as you state. Godspeed, fellow loser.
[ + ] Doglegwarrior
[ - ] Doglegwarrior 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 01:39:57 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] i_scream_trucks
[ - ] i_scream_trucks 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:54:48 ago (+1/-0)
Not like I didn't bitch and moan for two years straight on old voat.
It helped.
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 23:52:23 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 23:51:38 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 00:46:33 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 08:48:23 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] JewChipper
[ - ] JewChipper 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 00:14:37 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 22:37:50 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:59:40 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 08:36:35 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] prominent_proboscis
[ - ] prominent_proboscis 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:34:33 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] NukeAmerica
[ - ] NukeAmerica 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 04:43:11 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:44:17 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] NukeAmerica
[ - ] NukeAmerica 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 16:00:23 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] herbert_west
[ - ] herbert_west 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 03:03:25 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 00:59:33 ago (+0/-0)
https://www.benefits.va.gov/vocrehab/
[ + ] beece
[ - ] beece 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 23:57:50 ago (+0/-0)*
That one thing is that you need to find and list what is important to you...the things that you believe. Write them down. Then reflect on it and come up with a goal that reflects what is important to you. Then do a rewrite. List what you will do to get to that goal. Your future will thank you for this.
It is much harder than it sounds - however, anyone who can accomplish it will be the lead dog in their much happier and fulfilled life. I was stuck in a shit dead end job working for a retarded douchnossel I'd learned to hate when I finally came to that party. I'd had Strawberry Fields Forever spinning daily in my head, near endlessly. ("Living is easy, with eye's closed, misunderstanding what you see"). Looking back, I thought it had applied to my boss...but no, not him, it was all about me. Always was.
Not kidding. Changed my life. Best to you brother, don't fucking give up. Never give up. Spend most of your time looking forward. What is important to you. Find that. Make a goal. You will find success and happiness. Plenty of time for you left to do so.
[ + ] HonkyMcNiggerSpic
[ - ] HonkyMcNiggerSpic 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 23:32:05 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] Anus_Expander
[ - ] Anus_Expander 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:18:06 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ]deleted
[ - ] deleted 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:12:29 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX -4 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 21:50:53 ago (+1/-5)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 4 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:00:04 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX 2 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:00:49 ago (+3/-1)
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 4 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:04:20 ago (+4/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX -1 points 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:05:31 ago (+3/-4)
I even tried leading by example. Damn!
[ + ] Jerd34
[ - ] Jerd34 [op] 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 5, 2023 22:09:40 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 00:56:11 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:32:15 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:34:28 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX 1 point 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 07:19:15 ago (+1/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:11:22 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 7, 2023 00:13:15 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] paul_neri
[ - ] paul_neri 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 06:47:19 ago (+0/-0)
[ + ] FreeinTX
[ - ] FreeinTX 0 points 1.3 yearsJan 6, 2023 07:18:42 ago (+0/-0)