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Homesick

submitted by anthonylancer to whatever 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 18:12:03 ago (+45/-0)     (files.catbox.moe)

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[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 7 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 20:38:40 ago (+7/-0)

For anyone interested, here's some psychedelic anecdotes. Over the last two decades, I've consumed psilocybin mushrooms well over a hundred times, sometimes weekly, sometimes full three day weekend binges. 95% of the sessions have been alone, often at home, in the dark. I'd regularly START the dose at 5 dried grams in lemon with ginger, often redosing a few times to get at least 12 hours worth. I found taking anything above 10g and the 'launch intensity' was just too much to be useful: my aim was always to stay in the hallucinogenic sweet spot, between the nausea and the tacky self reflection.

I've encountered the elf chaps before, but not in a million years would they look at you like that. Most of them appear to be janitors, "on duty" and seem terrified to be seen, absolutely terrified. They will freeze then run. The shock seemed to stem not from the threat of what I would do, but literally the terror that I had ended up in a place where by I was able to see them.

The first time this happened, I had woken in a large square tiled bath filled with dark liquid. Relative to my size, it must've been about 15ft squared and about 4 ft deep. The room was well lit and ventilated. I looked over the side of the bath and there was one of those characters sweeping up around the outside of the bath. I didn't say anything. I just watched. It passively glanced at me, then back down at the brush, in a way which suggested it had been monitoring me. Then, a second glance happened, to check it hadn't imagined that I was awake. Alarmed, it looked around my eyes and mouth in a triangular fashion, and began to panic like the situation unfolding was way beyond anything it had expected. It started to have a panic attack then turned and ran. I tried to get out of the bath to follow it but found myself tethered beneath the water, and as I pulled at the cords, the lights went out and the fluid around me began to cool rapidly. As the sound of the fans began to fade into silence, a soft mumbling voice could be heard in the dark corner, chanting "What do I do, what do I do, what do I do?"

[ - ] FalseRealityCheck 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 20:59:10 ago (+2/-0)

Next time you encounter the elves ask them if there are any black ones who'll wash your dick. If so, make them chant "We wuz kangz" whilst they scrub your ballsack. Report back here afterwards.

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:09:25 ago (+2/-0)

I'm about done with psychedelics now. I'm only interested in hallucinations and visuals at this point; all the psychoanalysis became too much cheesy baggage - typically it's about 80% of the experience too...

Jokes aside, I'm a few weeks into learning how to read heiroglyphics - I started after seeing that very specific image of dick washing kangz and wanting to unravel it.

I've decoded half of it, it's not just about washing it's about elongation and packing, but having difficulty finding any specialists who will verify my findings. I think the other Egyptologists either don't take me seriously when I send that image, or they don't trust what I'll do with the information.


[ - ] FalseRealityCheck 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:44:53 ago (+0/-0)

...it's about elongation and packing...
Faggots; I knew it!

[ - ] SparklingWiggle 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:24:52 ago (+2/-0)

I'd like to try them, but don't have any idea where I would get them.

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:33:19 ago (+2/-0)

Grow them, pick them, or buy them. I can offer answers to any questions you might have on those topics,





[ - ] SparklingWiggle 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:19:41 ago (+1/-0)

Where would one pick them or buy them or get the spores to grow them?

BTW, Sassafras root can be boiled to make not only root beer, but an hallucinogenic concoction containing MDA.

[ - ] bonghits4jeebus 3 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:42:38 ago (+3/-0)

Yep buy the spores online and grow them. I've done it. You need to be careful when you sterilize them you don't grow toxic mold instead, but it's not particularly hard to do. Once you've put the spores and substrate in a jar, sterilize using a pressure cooker.

[ - ] SparklingWiggle 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:44:22 ago (+0/-0)

Thanks.

[ - ] Twodivinehipsters 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:33:41 ago (+2/-0)

I’ve never used the site myself but this (link below) looks like a site where you can buy shroom spores legally. One of many sites. It’s probably safer to grow rather than buy illegal drugs in the mail. Keep in mind it’s illegal to grow them but for some reason spores are legal.
https://www.mushrooms.com/mushroom-spores-cultures/magic-mushrooms/mushroom-spore-syringes/cubensis

[ - ] Monica 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 03:15:37 ago (+2/-0)

Because spores are just cells... like babies and abortion (so say the left).

[ - ] SparklingWiggle 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:44:36 ago (+1/-0)

Interesting. Thank you.

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:54:28 ago (+2/-0)

If you're not a person used to buying drugs, try to find someone who is - preferably use an experienced person as your middle man. Get them to ask around, average stoners will do as from my experience, cannabis dealers are more likely to link mushrooms anyway than people who sell pills n powders etc. Treat this as a casual route though: ask around and buy when they appear in a dealer's cabinet: never push hard asking and searching, youe can get exploited by bad dealers doing this. Ripped off or sold the wrong thing etc. Note: when buying, if it's seasonal they'll probably be picked locally. Out of season they will be home grown. This means you are trusting the whole supply chain not to pick the wrong species or not to sell product of a contaminated grow. So let's leave this as a backup

Spores are commonly LEGAL to buy online around the world, delivered. Look for "cubensis spore kit" and check your area. "The reddit group of "r / shrooms" is probably still a great resource to learn how to then grow - it's a hot bed of active enthusiasts. If you do this route, don't tell anyone.

Picking them depends on location, season, conditions and luck. Try people or groups you know as having an experienced hunter teach you the ropes in the field is a great day out. If you can't find anyone, you can be a sperg like me and become the first in the chain: teach yourself then teach others. Begin by searching for "Psilocybin mushrooms of my country" then learn a little about them. Typically, you'll either be looking in cow/sheep fields for Liberty Caps: Psilocybe semilanceata or another larger strain such as Psilocybe cubensis, or wood chip loving Wavy tops Psilocybe cyanescens

Nice! I'll look into the sassafras tip thanks! I appreciate that gesture of a trade of knowledge

[ - ] anthonylancer [op] 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:51:03 ago (+2/-0)

Do you want me to explain how to use the deep web to buy them? Buyers don't get in trouble

[ - ] SparklingWiggle 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:15:41 ago (+1/-0)

Sure.

[ - ] anthonylancer [op] 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 23:50:56 ago (+1/-0)

You need TOR browser, you can use dark.fail (or the onion link) for market links and the link to dread
Dread is a reddit clone that mostly focuses on dark net markets
On dread you will find lots of useful guides.
You need a monero wallet (XMR)
You need to generate a set of PGP keys for encrypted messaging

Let me know what to elaborate on

[ - ] Monica 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 03:16:53 ago (+1/-0)

elaborate on

You need to generate a set of PGP keys for encrypted messaging

Also how do you buy monero without a trace of buying it?

[ - ] domains 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 10:13:09 ago (+0/-0)

Use the site to sell your own goods for monero. Not everything for sale needs to be illegal

[ - ] anthonylancer [op] 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 12:36:54 ago (+0/-0)

Using a key manager like Kleopatra for windows, you generate a keypair. This is two keys a public and private key. The private one you keep private and the public one you would paste to a darknet market for example or paste in your voat bio. This enables anyone to take your public key, import it into their key manager, and encrypt a message that only you(the person with the corresponding private key) can decrypt using your key manager

You can use a swapping service or you can use an exchange, I think localmonero exists too. Buying monero is not bad in my opinion because when you send it there is no record of how much and to whom you sent it.

[ - ] Monica 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 17:43:42 ago (+0/-0)

Cool thanks!

Is this it? https://www.openpgp.org/software/kleopatra/

@anthonylancer

[ - ] anthonylancer [op] 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 24, 2022 02:04:46 ago (+0/-0)

I am using the windows version but that seems to be it

[ - ] SparklingWiggle 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 08:05:53 ago (+0/-0)

I can follow that.

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:55:51 ago (+0/-0)

Team work makes the elfs shake in fear!

Nice work,

[ - ] goat777 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 12:12:31 ago (+1/-0)

I created my own sub for mushrooms with instructions.

[ - ] 2017Fallout 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 03:22:35 ago (+0/-0)

Learn how to ident them then start looking in fields which are grazed. Check out when they are likely out in your region. You can pick a thousand in a?few hours. Dry them out on paper and keep in an airtight jar. They last 18mths to 2 years.

[ - ] anthonylancer [op] 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:50:14 ago (+2/-0)

That's really sick, I've had lovely trips on shrooms and acid. I believe that all is one now.

[ - ] NeonGreen 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 22:42:28 ago (+2/-0)

You can speak for them on DMT

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 23:03:05 ago (+1/-0)

I'll give it a shot next time I find some DMT. Hopefully they'll stay for a chat, that would be great. At this point though, I really just want to give one a good roundhouse kick and see what happens

But anyway, they always run off. Another way to describe the feeling is to imagine you've got invisibility spell, sneak into the women's showers, then poof it just wears off and they all start screaming and running around

[ - ] giantprick 2 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 01:54:35 ago (+2/-0)

Uh, when do the elves show up?

I've taken decent quantities before. I've traveled through millenia long voyages. I've never seen a fucking elf lol

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 24, 2022 20:26:55 ago (+0/-0)

I think I know what you're talking about - I describe that one as "strapped to the back of a rocket" lol,

I spent a long time trying to specialise in getting to the hallucinations and staying there. This included 'heavy redoses' at points where I knew the visuals would begin to subside into the traditional 'trip' - for example:

00 Hours Consume dried mushrooms in prepared capsules with a decent amount of anything with ginger in it. Swallow ginger root, ginger powder etc... It dampens the nausea. The capsules come on slowly but solid, and provide the skeleton:
~1.5 hours coming up, chill in bath, get comfortable with the uncomfortable feeling of the body being taken over
2 hours visuals start. This is where I start thinking about the 'top up redosing'.
2-3.5 hours is the visual sessions. If I havnt topped up in time, I begin entering the next stage. This transition is always marked by a muted sadness to me though,
3.5 onwards, euphoria, reflection, psychoanalsysis etc. Most people are glad to get here, but for me it's a toll paid for the psychedelic safari I'm after

So I'd experiment with staying in the peak state around 3 hours in. Redose and keep that peak going as long as possible until the effects can't really be felt anymore. There have been times where I've eaten over 1000 liberty caps doing this, others where I've been through 35g of dried cubensis (not in one dose: it began with a 5g dose, then had interval top ups. These top ups were NOT as strong as the times where I experiemnted with starting with 15g+ but them sessions ended up in major barfing

Now, a lot of people say "don't redose it won't work!" but they also say 3g is a big dose. It does work if you double or triple the dose (note: this sucks if you're buying them, but if you pick or grow and have a really good harvest, that's a game changer): then you use lemon to bring the redose on more rapidly and at an expected rate:

As you start getting visuals, you then hit large doses of cannabis [relative to your tolerance, not absolute] which absolutely trigger severe visuals almost as reliably as throwing a rock into a pond generates ripples. Laying down in the dark with a vaporiser is a safe way to do this, in terms of no fire risk.

Then, you need to relax, but be passively observant and learn to seperate between closed eye visuals (ones presented as if they are on the inside of your eyelids or mapping themselves ot your surroundings) vs internal hallucinations. The latter is where it's at. You need to smashed though: stuck to the floor in darkness with your brain feeling like it's melting out of your ears.

For me, Elf characters began to appear as components working this "realm" - they DO NOT manifest in typical closed eye visuals - everything there is a SYMBOL at best, which typically present as fractals, mathematics, patterns, paraedolia etc. Everything in the closed eye visuals seem to be "shadows" of things present in higher dimensions - similar to the way a 3d object casts a 2d shadow. The realm of hallucinating real alternate dimensions with fully fleshed life is more similar to whatever happens when we dream. Again, this means that the elfs were NOT manifesting in this world; they did not magically appear in my kitchen like something from jumanji, instead my minds' eye generated everything from darkness. So just sit in darkness and trip, on your own...

Also, no screens. None at all. Use screens/TV frames as a source for "grounding" myself if I got a bit too deep: the screens significantly reduce the psychedelic effects and experience for everything you see on the screen whilst tripping, could've been achieved without tripping. For example, think of cartoons that imitate drug trips.

Also, try these two things next time you're tripping:
1) rolling your eyes back in order to look at the back/inside/top roof of your own skull. See what is up there, as if you're in an old pristine chapel looking up at the artwork.

2) try making small demands... "ask" the experience to entertain you and see what symbols appear to meet this demand. If you laugh, smile, feel warmth, you're on the right path. There is a strange life force to be found here

Anyway, that's as honest as I can be for giving a few pointers to finding your way there

[ - ] giantprick 0 points 2.2 yearsMar 4, 2022 17:06:25 ago (+0/-0)

My man thank you I will take all this and try it out next time

Also Holy fuck 15g that's... Like an entire baggies worth isn't it?

[ - ] PawpawMan 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 10:06:11 ago (+1/-0)

Can you tell some more stories of these encounters?

[ - ] Boardallday_420_2 -3 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 20:47:02 ago (+0/-3)

Retard

[ - ] glow_in_the_dark 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 20:53:42 ago (+1/-1)

U r a hooknose.

Go sniff round corners elsewhere: I have no interest in infighting.

[ - ] boekanier 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 00:59:35 ago (+1/-0)

it would be interesting to know what language they speak, the invisible beings I mean.

[ - ] account deleted by user 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 19:49:26 ago (+1/-0)

account deleted by user

[ - ] Feelsgood 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 19:40:47 ago (+1/-0)

Then make it exist.

[ - ] thebearfromstartrack4 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 19:34:03 ago (+1/-0)

That's how I feel. If I get REAL particular, things weren' so good LONG ago, there was ONLY me (white washing it). I want to GET OUT OF HERE, but I'm HELD PRISONER. I CAN'T GO. I CAN'T RETALIATE (or I am the 'bad' GuY). They say, I'd REGRET it. THAt I don't know what I miss until it's GONE. I don't know. I can SURE dream up a BETTER life, pretty EASILY. and ALL the criminals and THREATS are GONE. ALL of them.

[ - ] anthonylancer [op] 1 point 2.2 yearsFeb 22, 2022 21:52:34 ago (+1/-0)

There's probably a way to become more powerful without going to a different life

[ - ] ForgottenMemes 0 points 2.2 yearsFeb 23, 2022 00:23:12 ago (+0/-0)

Hiraeth