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Something a bit more personal tonight. My grandmother passed away in her bed of her home after her short battle of Stage IV Colon Cancer around 10:34 pm in her sleep. She brought full life of everyone in my family, including me. She had the mind of a child but was happy for it, except it only pissed off my mother who took care of her mostly.

Before she passed away, I was able to talk with her and seeing her with high hopes of joy & happiness despite the pain & suffering. She told me that she was admitted into the ER, and able to have all of her examinations & surgery to remove the tumor & colon with no problems, no delays. There was none of the so called "full capacity" & "overflowing" lies when I was there even with revisits despite the no visitation rule. It was empty & quiet. Due to her age though, Radiation & Chemo treatments were out of the option and the tumor regrew back within two weeks.

I'm more angered at my mom though because she failed to take care of her. Take her to the doctor for checks for these things, but never did. I only was notified about it a few months ago as it was explained to me "The cancer showed up by surprise."

BULL SHIT!!! THIS CANCER WOULD HAVE BEEN CAUGHT EARLY IF THE CHECKS WERE DONE!!!

But unfortunately, nothing was done. No check-ups. Knowing my mom and her behavior with money managment, I have this suspicious feeling that she was waiting for her to die on purpose to get the life insurance money. Despictable.

No casket. No funeral. Just cremation & a service of rememberance. All of that talk of donating her brain to sicence for epilepsy research. Gone.

I'm more in the lines of anger & mourning right now. Given everything that is going on, I know that KungFlu wasn't involved, but that wouldn't stop the State from reporting it as a holocough hoax death to increase the numbers.

Yet, even in mourning I need to consider that she signing happily with the Lord up above. Away from this putrid Hell... Away from my mother, tbh. If you met her, you would understand.

Any support is welcomed. Feel free to post any prayers & verses too if you want.