I've been to a couple of AA meetings, and I have mixed thoughts on them. On the one hand, I met an older guy who has been sober for over 44 years. That worked for him, and if that's what it took, good on him. I feel out of place at those meetings, almost like I'm going through the motions without complete dedication toward what they accomplish. Sure, I want to have more control over myself - and it seems it's working - but there's a certain kind of mindset at those meetings I have a hard time accepting.
Admitting that I'm powerless over alcohol is the main hurdle for me. To me, I should work toward mastery over all things that would harm myself or others, and work to achieve a balance with them. Admitting complete defeat is foreign to me, but I could also be unreasonably stubborn in this regard. It wouldn't be the first time that's been the case in my life.
Not sure how to keep going from here. Anyone have experience with AA or recovering from alcohol abuse? I could use some advice.
My mom appears to be losing her mind. Quite literally--she simply does not have the ability to complete simple tasks anymore.
She is in her late 40s. Both she and my dad got the clot shot despite everything my brothers and I have told her. There are countless posts on here, many of which I vainly hoped would not apply to me, regarding the same thing happening.
It started slowly. She began to lose the ability to carry on a conversation. Then she would forget simple things, like how long something was cooking for or if she had events or things planned for the day.
Recently, when I visited my parents for dinner, she almost set the microwave on fire because she set the cook time for 10 minutes instead of 10 seconds for a pastry wrapped in plastic. The plastic melted, and took forever to clean up.
I should note my mom is extremely proficient in cooking, parenting, and other basic skills like sewing. Photography is one of her hobbies, and she loves it.
And lately she's been losing it all. She's been making more mistakes, snapping at myself and others with no reason at all, slowly abandoning photography, and there's been only one major change that I've noticed in the last year--she got the clot shots earlier this year.
I wanted to share this and see how many others had this same (or similar) things happen in their lives. I wouldn't wish this on anyone: seeing my mother mentally deteriorate like this hurts me to my core. I only wish her seemingly inevitable death had at least a modicum of dignity to it. However, I don't believe that will possibly happen.
