Sign into an existing account

My sister is an addict. A junkie. She maintains a good job by being a RN/BSN agent for a big insurance company.I lost al respect for her because I couldn't relate to her condition. I felt like you control your own fate. You are resposible for your actions. Easy peasy. She would tell me I had no clue to her situation. This hurt me because we we always close. Like close as being almost the same person.
So when she started with the opiates iwas hurt and felt betrayed. We drifted apart.
I , within the past few years tried my hardest to understand what she was going through. So I decided to take the bull by the horns and do heorin. I made myself addicted. For two months I snorted Heroin daily and got high as fuck.

Part of me was sure I was above addiction and it wouldnt happen. It happened. First off the high I got from the H was minimal. Not even as fun as weed, But it demands you do it again....and again...in fact that is a;ll the drug really is. Just a demand that you do more with no real payoff. You don't get high , you just get to feel good enough to function. And that's the roll..keep doing it just so you can keep doing it. Shit is straight out of hell. Pure evil.

I thought I could dive into the world of opiate addiction and hop out. Wrong..I'm clean but it has me. I won't ever be right again. The understanding I got from the experience has brought me and my sister close again...but what a fucking price. I don't care. I went there and now i can lead her. Opiates are pure hell. No lie. Straight up hell on earth. Don't judge the junkie. They are already in hell.

I didn't do opiates this and will never do them agaim. I can say I was smart enough to research how to detox and come off of them but holy fuck I wasn't ready for how it really is to come off that shit. You litterally want to die.
I don't rerally know why I'm sharing this with you faggots. I guess some of you that know me have noticed the lack of paticipation from me of late. Now you know why. I went to hell to help my sister. I have done that. I get it now. Don't do what I did. That fucking shit is no joke. It really is hell..

Peace.