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I'm getting paid a lot of money to do whatever I want by myself on stage. I receive a video of it the next day and it's amazing. It feels like a huge victory over life to just be myself and receive rewards for it. But then the Beatdown creature inside me who became an addict has its own thoughts about how for many years I was treated as a non-genius. It feels like the people around me should have propelled me instead of suppressing me. Not a lot of good comes from that line of thought. Yes I ended up having to do it by myself. Yes I'm lucky just for the opportunity. No there's not a lot of money in proving them wrong. The past is immaterial. I am here and it is awesome and I don't need drugs or justification or understanding or any of the other things that the addict feels he needs