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I'm living a loser's life but I'm not a loser.

submitted by Rayden to AskUpgoat 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 12:14:01 ago (+8/-0)     (AskUpgoat)

I know that I'm smart and I know that I'm hard working and I know I have discipline.

Yet my life has been nothing but me getting screwed over and me trying and falling. I know that you're supposed to blame yourself if your life sucks but I don't. Because I've done a lot of the stuff that you're supposed to do and it didn't work out for me. I just don't fit into this society. I feel like I never had a chance to be my own person when everyone else around me has and it bothers me because I really do think I'm an above average person yet somehow I'm living the ultimate loser life.

People say that you should just focus on your family but that's one of my greatest losses. I don't really have a family.

If there is a judgment day and I'm judged by my works I will say what the hell did you want me to do you didn't give me anything to work with and you screwed me over at every opportunity. I spent my whole life in isolated anguish and desolation as people around me were given resources and community to work with. I tried but I never had a shot. I was set up for failure.

I try to think what can I do to make my life have some net positive effect on the world because at this point I'm just so angry and bitter I feel like I'm making the world a worse place.

I know in the grand scheme of things I really don't matter at all and very few people do. But at the very least I don't want to make things worse.

*Mandatory disclaimer: my mental health is fine and I'm in no way suicidal I'm just thinking about life.


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[ - ] system 6 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 13:22:20 ago (+6/-0)

Are you me? You are not alone. My life has consisted of working my ass of for various companies. And what do I have to show for it? Absolutely nothing. None of them appreciated my good work. They don't want good workers, they want cheap niggers. I have no plan for the future and don't care. My backup plan is a tent. Eventually you become content with it.

[ - ] Promethea 2 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 18:58:57 ago (+2/-0)

you become con-tent with a tent.. sorry, I had to

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 10:16:34 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] account deleted by user 4 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 12:43:27 ago (+4/-0)

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[ - ] Artificial_Intelligentile 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 03:56:09 ago (+0/-0)

the doofus is Jiddu Chrishnamurti.

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 10:13:06 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] Artificial_Intelligentile 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 11:20:50 ago (+0/-0)

i didnt make that comment for you, but for those who might be interested in the origin of that quote.

[ - ] account deleted by user 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 11:24:29 ago (+0/-0)

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[ - ] Artificial_Intelligentile 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 11:27:01 ago (+0/-0)

and i bet theres some weird indian dialect that spells it just like that XD

[ - ] StarbuckAndCasey 3 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 17:58:45 ago (+3/-0)

The "real world" is forging your own life on your own scrap of land either in the woods or on a farm. With a family or not.

We were lied to about what being a "success" meant. We are just meat sacks our betters want to keep fed and watered enough to keep their system running.

It's all a farce so no wonder it wears those of us who recognize that it's a farce in despair.

[ - ] Fascinus 2 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 01:58:47 ago (+2/-0)

[ - ] deleted 3 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 14:58:27 ago (+3/-0)

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[ - ] zongongo 1 point 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 15:13:30 ago (+1/-0)

Saw an interview, maybe here, of some African hunter gatherers being asked some existential questions.
Pretty interesting.
When asked. "What is most important in life ? The answer was
"Meat", then "Meat and honey .... and WATER !! can't forget water"
That's based.

[ - ] WigSplitter 2 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 18:28:54 ago (+2/-0)

Walter White started his own meth empire. He liked it. He was good at it. He was alive.
Maybe you could try something like that.

[ - ] yesiknow 2 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 16:18:35 ago (+2/-0)

You aren't supposed to be a net positive effect on the world. We really aren't important. Whatever you eat for breakfast is important because it keeps you alive. There's a great joy in all the things that exist to keep you alive

You were given resources and community because they're all around you.

Everything that isn't good enough is good enough.

[ - ] Wahaha 2 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 15:25:41 ago (+2/-0)

Losing and winning is a mindset, not an outcome.

[ - ] HughBriss 2 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 12:28:01 ago (+2/-0)

I find myself feeling the same way. The country has changed so radically since I was a young man, it's unrecognizable. I'm angry and bitter that my former patriotism and pride in my military service is now completely irrelevant since it was all based on a country that doesn't exist and longer.

[ - ] Rayden [op] 3 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 12:33:39 ago (+3/-0)

Right, you did something honorable and then the values of society changed it feels like a betrayal.

[ - ] Not_a_redfugee 1 point 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 19:26:11 ago (+1/-0)

One of (((their))) tactics. take something nice and change it, make the people be glad when it's gone.

[ - ] Sleazy 1 point 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 18:57:25 ago (+1/-0)

where is the voluntary disclaimer?

[ - ] thegreenknight 1 point 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 18:33:24 ago (+1/-0)

If you can't find your purpose the best thing to do is travel. Read some travel adventure bios for inspiration.

Sounds like you have nothing holding you back, and that's nearly as rare as no mental health issues.

[ - ] goat777 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 16:45:01 ago (+0/-0)

Lots of us out here, you're absolutely not alone even if it feels lonely. A fresh start is always good if you can make it happen. Be the new guy in town, make new friends, do it better at a new job. I've done it many times. Just go!

[ - ] FluffyBunnySlippers 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 12:40:27 ago (+0/-0)

I can see your problem quite clearly. Your problem is lack of focus and I would guess strong relationships are at the heart of the malaise.

Stop this cycle right now…

Go step away from any distractions, spend a good four hours alone and figure out specifically what you want and what you want. This should include whatever is important to you, a house, a wife, whatever.
Write it down, this isn’t flippant bullshit, this is the new you putting a mark on the universe of that which you will manifest.
Take this list and write down specific actions you can take to move you closer to those goals
If you have such a relationship, socialize this and get feedback from someone you trust who isn’t holding you back
Review this list at least once a week, adjust as needed.

[ - ] Merlynn 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 04:24:59 ago (+0/-0)

Well,there's a lot of reasons you might feel this way.

First off,jews run everything. And when jews run everything,they tend to point it straight down. They want to be closer to their homeland. Which is hell. And they want to drag all of us down with them. And it doesn't matter what demographic you identify with,they're out to shit on everyone. There's an anti-white hate campaign going on. They're constantly encouraging niggers to degenerate as much as possible. Asians are getting attacked for the jewflu. Indians are getting shit of for their hygiene and job stealing. It's basically a bad time for everyone's self-esteem right now cause jews want their race war. And you don't get war without pissing everyone off.

It also sounds like you're dragging yourself behind society's cart rather than choosing your own path. You have to get down to what matters to you. It doesn't matter how petty or stupid it is,because in the grand scheme of things,everything is petty and stupid. I mean,it's a good idea to get a gun and practice with it. It's a good idea to get and stay in shape. And it's a good idea to look into getting some land and learning to work it. But at the end of the day,you have to get down with the idea that this is your life and what you make of it is up to you. No one else cares.

So,if you're living a loser life,it's at least partly your fault. Where do you want to go with it and what do you want to do? And work towards that. And remember,there's a lot of problems in life (((they))) don't want you to solve. It's not a lack of solutions,it's a need to have problems. The world,in that sense,is fine. So stop worrying about the world and just do what makes you happy. Maybe you should try talking to a cute girl. They're usually polite enough to have a pleasant conversation.

[ - ] Artificial_Intelligentile 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 13, 2021 04:07:28 ago (+0/-0)

I bet you are still living a better life than even a king in medieval times, right?

Get a new perspective. be thankful for what you have and learn to create joy from small things. and change your motivation. i dont know what field you are in, but your work has to have a purpose, or else you wouldnt get paid.

Years back i cleaned public garbagge dispossals and shoveled snow, it was a shit job and i got paid way too little. Yet everyday, i was in a good mood, because what i did was necessary for the community. So i focused on that.

even nowadays, all i want is the satisfaction from having done a good job. my customers produce tons of stuff, from cars to houses to toys, they all need me to do my job, so they can provide what is necessary for my community to live their lives as comfortable as i do.

yeah, there are some downsides, but playing this game of life on easy mode is fucking boring..

the social part is something i havent figured out myself. lonely as fuck.

loosing weight and getting fit again, now, maybe that will change things, at least i hope so..

Godspeed Brother

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[ - ] Jessepresent 0 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 20:54:53 ago (+1/-1)

Read “The Secret”

[ - ] chupacabra21 -1 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 12:28:05 ago (+1/-2)

First things first, stop being a bitch.

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[ - ] Tallest_Skil -4 points 2.8 yearsJun 12, 2021 12:48:25 ago (+0/-4)

*Mandatory disclaimer: my mental health is fine and I'm in no way suicidal

lol, sure